Currents of Time

Been thinking a lot about Raven Cycle, FFVIII, and FFXIV lately. Not all together, though XIV does have that whole influenced by VIII thing going on in the raid tier.

(fffffuuckkkk ffxiv is so good I'm so angry wtf wtf wtf)

Had a bit of a car accident in late March, ended up with a concussion, whiplash, and my car being totalled out. Got a new car, still kinda dealing with the other two, though no longer photophobic or headachey or even in PT.

Family life's a mess, but my cat's still around, so that's okay. Been feeling inexplicably jealous of folk who had good grandparents. Brain is confusing.


It is Tuesday and I already have almost 20 hours on my timesheet I am very tired, goodbye again.

DID I EVEN MAKE ANY ENTRIES THAT WERE NOT FFXV-RELATED LAST YEAR???

Okay, there were a few in the beginning of the year. But then I was C O N S U M E D (and, spoilers, I was getting better but then EPISODE IGNIS HAPPENED AND NOW MY LIFE IS 24/7 SCREAMING ABOUT IDIOT BOYS AND THEIR STUPID GAME AND HOW MUCH I LOVE EVERYTHING AND ASDKJHSKJDFLDJGLKSMJLKSDLKNSKGBDLSA).

But ANYWAY what all did I gloss over in favour of existing in a haze of video game-induced despair (wow, thanks, escapism, not like I didn't need you more than usual last year) for like 8 months? (Okay not actually the entire reason I wasn't posting but augh: seriously, what the fuck, Square, you can't just - and - no - GRAH. But also they fixed it so most of my rage is just lingering resentment at this point. Assholes.)

( *sound of rewinding* )

WORDS

Sooo, on Tuesday, which I had off, I (finally) got a new x-ray form and took myself up to the hospital to have my stupid right ankle looked at. For those just coming in, my ankle likes to randomly burst into excruciating pain for no apparent reason, and it has been doing this on and off for at least, um. At least eight years.

I sprained it (quite badly) in first grade, then again in fifth grade, and then a few other times since, and I'd figured for a while it was maybe just because it was weak and hurt from the trauma it endured when I was, you know, seven or so. But two years back I asked my doctor about it because GDI IT HURTS and she suggested we try physical therapy for it, see what that brought. What it brought was not much, really. In the end, my therapist said that there wasn't much of any improvement being made and, judging by the nature of the pain I described, possibly I had something called "joint mice." So my doctor wrote me an x-ray form aaaand then I started my job at the bank and had no time whatsoever and the form expired and I was too embarrassed to ask for a new one UNTIL MONDAY when I went in for a physical (traumatic).

Back to Tuesday.

For my x-ray, it cost a lot of money up front and will probably cost more later, because lolhospitals. And I heard NOTHING yesterday aaaugh and then late this afternoon at work my doctor called me HEY WE GOT YOUR ANKLE SHOTS GOOD NEWS!! There is definitely some lesion thing that we don't know what it is in there!

She thinks it's probably a benign bone tumor and, having read up on them a little now, I do find myself wondering about that osteoid osteoma, especially on account of that "gets worse at night" bit. The number of times I have woken up in agony... Sharp and deep aren't too far off the mark for the pain, either. Also, those look pretty treatable, so, so, so maybe...?


Anyway, they want me to go back for an MRI so they can get MOAR DATA, which kind of makes my wallet weep, but fortunately I should hit my deductible soon, which means maaaaaaybe I won't have to pay for it all? Freaking health insurance. So expensive. So useless.

Sooo, cat had a UTI scare right before Christmas. And it's back. Aaaand she peed on my roommate's favourite chair, which, as far as I know, she never even looks at, much less sits on. But so now I need to pay for that to be cleaned, because my cat, my money. And also there's a puddle on my bed. Which she also peed on LAST TIME. I love having my winter bedding full of cat pee and thus unusable. I especially love having to pay to have it cleaned.

I know it is not her fault, so I am not taking it out on her, she's in enough obvious discomfort as it is, but AAAAAAAAAAURGH.

So it's BACK to the vet tomorrow, to spend MORE MONEY that I don't really have. Thank god I get three paydays this month.



Also just found out both my roommates are moving out in May. GREAT. Now I get to either hunt for two new roommates OR hunt for a new apartment. ... and still need new roommates.

Who wants to move to Vermont.

Sooo. My brother! He almost exclusively runs Linux. He's got an actual copy of Windows, but he also has a Windows emulator, which is mostly what he uses to run things that don't work on Linux. He is pretty proud of himself and his virus-proof computer.

Last night, he sends me a file, which I attempt to unzip, and my computer pitches a fit because lolvirus.


It's just some stupid thing that took like 2 minutes to clean up (well, okay, more than that, and I'm running an extra check now just to be sure), but that has not stopped me from allcapsing at him with I BLAME YOOOOOOOOOUs and the like.


If I were a worse person, I'd never let him live this down, hahaha.




Meanwhile, after he sent me a clean version of the same file (??? neither of us have any idea how this happened) and I watched/read it (it was a .. what are they called, video novel or whatever with pictures and whatever. Inspired by his suddenly remembering it's November and I do that weird writing madness thing this time each yeah), I complimented him on his choice of pictures for the Goobbue army because, haha, one of the people his story was about (well, one of the members of the group of people) was front and center in the shot, and he was confused.

Turns out he had googled it. He hadn't even realised it was our server, haha. What are the odds of that?

Also, I cannot believe I failed to register this when I read this dialogue in-game, but my server has officially made Eorzean history. Excalibur was the first server to report the strange past time of people hopping on their Goobbue mounts and standing in a line all around the city of Ul'dah aaaand...

Relevant link!

(The image on that page is the same one he used for his little story.)


(IF YOU LOOK IN THE BACKGROUND, YOU CAN SEE ME.)

Former coworker of mine, can't remember if I ever said much about her. She was nice enough, her husband was sketchy as fuck, the entire department thought something was going on with him. But she was always setting sick or hurting herself in weird ways, and eventually she really hurt her shoulder, supposedly at work but there was no proof of it, and she was told she'd have to get a doctor's note and stuff. And so she stopped showing up and got fired, and she called a while later to ask if she still had a job, and then they came in a few times and got busted for shoplifting but it was little enough that they didn't get in super big trouble for it. And eventually she got a job at another grocery store. And she seemed to like it there, but then she was complaining about stomach problems and then she was missing work aaaaand then she just kinda fell off the face of the planet.


UNTIL TODAY.


When this happened.

It is probably not what you (and most of the rest of us) suspected.




Sooo, yeah. It is fucking weird seeing the mug shots of people you know on the evening news, I tell you what. o__O


They have a kid, too, who's a total sweetheart. I hope he's okay.



Anyway, I owe DW some attention, I'll try to get to it this weekend. Been super busy lately.

Apparently BotCon pre-reg is live! I missed the same-day thing by less than an hour. Or not, I guess it's valid until like 3 this afternoon? 24 hours as a day, not midnight.

....Whateverrrrrrrrrr. I don't even really want the box set. (Does anyone? ... no seriously, if someone actually wants it, you can have mine, probably including the free figure, at less than what they charge. Maybe 300, tops. Since I'll be keeping the pin and attending the convention.)


OH, HEY, RIGHT. GUYS - if you're not a member and need to become one to register (since it's like 100 dollars cheaper, holy cow), ignore the message about having to wait until Monday. Just register using the club store, and then you can sign up for BotCon as a club member. It's what I did, so it definitely works.





I had surprise two interviews today.


It was stressful.



PLEASE CROSS FINGERS FOR ME TONIGHT RE: POTENTIAL JOB?

I wanna make this short because I'm dead tired and I've already been up about 40 minutes longer than I wanted to be, but I figured I should announce my having endured the previous month. Shortly after my last entry I kinda fell into another slump. I think maybe it's habit at this point.

I made a to-do list for the month and only got about half of it done. This sounds even less impressive when you know that one of the items on the list was "eat breakfast"... I did manage to get to the post office several times, but only once did I mail anything, and every other time I was looking for the flat rate boxes, which have apparently disappeared from the local one? I finally snagged a few from the small one near my work last Thursday. I have successfully sold a few robots. No one wanted any postcards. One of my roommates crossed a line with his joke insulting and now I don't want to be anywhere near him. I got older and my ankle hurt a bunch.


But it's March now and I've perked up a tiny bit, at least. I'm reading your entries, but I haven't got the energy to comment yet. I've eaten three meals a day for the past three days. FFXIV is running beta and anyone with an active account at the closing down back in October was automatically enrolled in it. /one of these things is not like the other


I need to remember to ask my therapist about anxiety and triggers and things, because my reaction to severely drunk individuals is really kind of worrying, and now I don't want to be anywhere near my other roommate, either.

This is a pretty random entry. Some real life stuff, some fandom stuff, some musings on things, and a couple random facts about myself that I'm not necessarily ashamed of but am kind of embarrassed to admit. Possibly not in that order.

OH BUT FIRST: thanks to everyone who commented on my clothing crisis entry! Your opinions really helped. :D

( Okay, go! )

la la la it is almost 3 am way past time to go to bed


... wait, did I create this "cartoons forever" tag or is someone messing with me? I am legitimately not sure. (The perils of allowing outside tag creation, haha.)

If any of you have done any business with the TFCC - and we're apparently talking in the scope of ever, here, going by some of the testaments - please do yourself a favour and (assuming you don't already) start keeping an extra close eye on whatever account you may have used for transactions. There seem to be some potential (well, we say potential...) credit card security problems. There's some info here, and there was supposedly an e-mail from the club about it (though it doesn't seem to have had much in the way of details. They also put out a .pdf), but members aren't all getting it, and non-members don't seem to be, at all. It looks to be pretty widespread, and is affecting people who say it's hitting them on cards they've only ever used in the club store (which, yeah, bit of a strong indicator of who is to blame, there).


So, you know. Be watchful.