Currents of Time

This is a pretty random entry. Some real life stuff, some fandom stuff, some musings on things, and a couple random facts about myself that I'm not necessarily ashamed of but am kind of embarrassed to admit. Possibly not in that order.

OH BUT FIRST: thanks to everyone who commented on my clothing crisis entry! Your opinions really helped. :D

( Okay, go! )

la la la it is almost 3 am way past time to go to bed


... wait, did I create this "cartoons forever" tag or is someone messing with me? I am legitimately not sure. (The perils of allowing outside tag creation, haha.)

So, now that we’re halfway through the month of November and I don’t feel like suddenly actually committing to getting 50k words out of myself by the end of the month, I have suddenly come up with exactly what I am going to do for next year. Maybe I can come up with something slightly less hilariously lame. We shall see. I HOPE I DO NOT FORGET BECAUSE it made me giggle at the sheer idiocy of it. I have made a note to myself, but who’s to say if I’ll remember it’s there, or that I won’t lose it somehow, or… whatever.

I was maybe stupid enough to tell my manager I’m totally able to work Thanksgiving. Uuh. Self, what. At least I’ll get out at 3 instead of when it is DARK AND COLD AND DINNER IS OVER. And, according to my brother, who has worked for the same store (well, same chain, different location. Where I used to work), Thanksgiving day itself is actually pretty slow. Probably because everyone’s busy cooking.

In entirely unrelated news, the ending of Final Fantasy X still makes me do that weird thing where your eyes are leaking but you aren’t really crying? Except then the credits start rolling and I don’t have to watch anything anymore and then I kind of do cry a bit. I know I wrote a memo to myself regarding watching things that will make me cry shortly after cleaning my glasses, mostly concluding that I should not do this. I WILL NEVER LEARN.

I was going to beat it last night, but when I went to tell Aniko to STAY OUT OF THE ROOM because, you know, spoilers, it somehow came around to me starting a new file. But no such thing happened tonight and it's kind of like Ecco in that once I get the idea in my head that I need to play it, I can't get it back out until I remember exactly how it hurts me. (This is Dissidia's fault, though. How dare you use the musical cues, game?! Ecco is almost always entirely my own doing.)


Man, also, at work this evening I suddenly had an awesome idea for something to write (not the NaNo thing, that’s actually a day or two old), but by the time I had finished walking home I’d talked myself out of it. I can’t quite bring myself to say it’s a terrible idea, simply because it amuses me, and while I won’t deny at all that my sense of humor is questionable at best, it is hard to dislike something that genuinely entertains you, isn’t it?

Part of the problem might be that it was FFVIII-related, and I am ridiculously intimidated by the idea of even writing, never mind actually posting, anything about it. And I worry a lot about getting everyone wrong, because mostly I either don’t relate to them at all (personality-wise, I mean) and so wonder if I’m really doing them any justice, or because I relate to them entirely too much and then I wonder if I’m projecting. And my brain is really addled from LIFE these days and I can't remember if canon is as ambiguous as I'm coming up with or if anything is actually established. And I can't be bothered to go looking because don't wanna, though it could possibly give me a "BUT IT GOES AGAINST CANON" excuse, because of course AU fic is entirely out of the question. Of course. uurgh.

Sea Monks.

I don't know. Maybe it's my shampoo (hidden effect: +Sea Monk Notorious Monster emnity?).

WHY DO YOU ALWAYS SPAWN WHENEVER I GET ON A BOAT. I am sick of hiding in the cabin!


(UTSUSEMI: NI IS MIIIIIIIIIIIINE. LOOK AT THIS: THIS IS ME BEING DONE WITH NINJA FOR EVERRRRRRR. omg. finally. Our very last BCNM run was kind enough to grant us a third scroll, so my brother and I each got what we needed, as well as a... teeeeny little bit of gil, at least.)



Finally went and poked around on the BotCon page, possibly because I wanted to rub salt into my own wounds. $175 for non-toys package seems a bit steep (assuming you want to register with the club, but seeing as it saves you 25 dollars, why wouldn't you, if you can?), but I WANT TO GO SO BAD.

UGH!


I HATE NOT HAVING A JOB/ANYONE TO GO WITH! (If I had a job, I could afford to go alone. As it is, I can only pay for two of the three necessities - those being air fare, hotel, registration.) I'd go register on some forum somewhere and beg for a roommate, but we all remember what happened last time I signed up at a forum BY WE ALL I MEAN ME. And also rooming with complete strangers is kind of not something I'd be comfortable with. And also they'd probably feel the same way.

*goes to sulk in the corner*


Also, I dislike Daylight Savings Time. Whyyy do you do this to me?


And, just so you know, despite the apparent general tone of this entry and the fact that my ankle still freaking hurts (you know what would be lovely? HEALTH CARE, so I could go see a doctor), today was pretty good and I'm actually fairly content. Aside from whenever I check the forums and see all the BotCon talk, which prompts the QQ.

... QQ

Oh, and, uh, probably obviously, I'm back from visiting my brother.

AND. I am having a bizarre bout of NEED TO WRITE NEED TO WRITE RIGHT NOW, which mostly prompts me to wonder what I'm forgetting about doing, because this is usually a sign of subconscious procrastination. Oh, well~

If I am wildly distraught over Something at any point between Monday morning and Wednesday extended to Thursday evening, I would like everyone in the world to tell me, "Well, you did think it was a bad idea."

Because I just know this is going to end in blood and tears and pain and general unhappiness on all counts, but I'm going and doing it anyway.

(This has been a bad idea since all of time, but especially so since this last Monday. Oh, god, what am I doing?)

...Possibly I am going over there and being sick all over the place now.


BAD TIME TO BE ILL, JECCA, M'DEAR, YOU HAVE TO RIDE IN A CAR FOR FIVE+ HOURS TOMORROW. It'll be fun! Worry about this later!


Now where are all the funguar? I only need one more Dark Crystal to make a stack, and I'm only 150 experience from level 12. I STOP AT 12. Come on, Ronfaure, I know there are funguar here.