Currents of Time

I am fairly certain I've made this entry before (possibly multiple times), but apparently I think it needs repeating (again). Blame my fluctuating mental state. Or the allergy meds. Both, even! The point, anyway, is that I am really kind of terribly awful at leaving comments (you are all shocked by this revelation, I am sure). It is not because I do not read your entries, or that I do not care (actually, I will confess that I do not read Glee-related entries, which many of you do write, because I simply do not care about that show. At all. But that is nothing personal, that is me really not like a series, and different tastes and all), it is just that I never know what to say. It seems like someone has always already said it better than me, or that what I would say would just be trite or annoying. And I know that is kind of crap, because I, at least, totally don't notice if someone has said something totally ridiculous in a comment left here. I always love getting comments! But (and this is partly what the meds and most recent run of therapy's about) I have recurring troubles with self-esteem and all, so despite knowing a comment I'd leave wouldn't bother me if someone else left it, I can't help but imagine it will annoy the pants off of whoever I leave it for. (I am even having trouble doing things as simple as hitting "Like" on Facebook these days.)


This was just something I was reflecting on as I did that whole 30 Days of Video Games meme, during which I got an unusually high number of comments, but I was leaving even less than usual. And I feel really bad about this, but at the moment, I am just not equipped to deal with it. So, I'm sorry, and I hope no one feels like I am ignoring them or that I don't like them or don't care. I'm just not in a very good brain-space.

Anyone who needs Transformers G1... The Matrix of Leadership set is on Woot.com for $60 (today only)! Which is a lot less than you'd normally have to pay for it. It's $153 on Amazon and $130 on Shout!'s factory store. Dang. It has, entirely unsurprisingly, sold out now!



I had something I actually wanted to post about earlier today, but I've kind of lost track of what it was in between working and then dinner and a movie. (I finally saw Inception and it was awesome. Insert standard "blah blah blah it had problems and plot holes [this thing] didn't make sense etc" here, but you know what, I enjoyed it anyway, so meh) So, you know. I guess it's just that link up above for now.

Feeling extraneous, moody, unappreciated, head-achey, tired. Don't know why. Away from LJ until I feel something resembling human again. Will continue to be reachable through the usual alternate methods.

I would just like to make sure of something!

Sometimes Jeccas do silly somethings and post stuff they perhaps should not! Maybe it is part of a conversation she has had with someone. Maybe it is something she overheard someone say! Maybe it is something else entirely that is ridiculously stupid! Whatever Jecca has done that is silly, though, she is probably not aware of it! She does not post things intending to hurt or really upset people!


Guys, seriously, please, I beg of you all, if I ever post anything that upsets you in any way, LET ME KNOW. Drop a comment, or send me an e-mail, or... whatever, but please, please tell me. If you don't want other people to know, you can delete the comment! Or maybe even leave it anonymously! I am not going to call anyone out for being hurt by something I post! I WILL NOT BE ANGRY! I will feel bad and take steps to rectify the situation.

Perhaps I will lock down the entry, or outright delete it. Perhaps I will remove whatever it is that has caused the problem. I don't know. It will change situation to situation.

But please tell me. Don't just let it sit around, because then not only does it get around and everyone else sees whatever has upset you, but - and here I am selfish - I get really annoyed if I am approached a week or more later. And I feel weird locking entries several days after posting them (usually it goes the other way...most entries that I post as either friends or private locked open up after they fall off the top of the page). AND I feel bad, but I am also angry about it. I know that is not anyone's problem but mine, but please, please let me know sooner rather than later, if you can.


LONG STORY SHORT: CALL ME ON MY SHIT



.... AND DESPITE ALL OF THE ABOVE, I KIND OF SUSPECT THIS ENTRY'S GOING TO UPSET SOMEONE, TOO, BUT I REALLY WANT TO MAKE SURE THIS ISN'T A PROBLEM! So, I am sorry in advance! I AM NOT SINGLING ANYONE OUT, or I am not meaning to, if I am? I do not know if I am. I do not think I am! Possibly I am wrong! But either way, it has happened before and I see no reason why it couldn't happen again, and just let me know. I will not make drama out of it!

And again this entry is the exception just because I want to be sure everyone knows this.

I could go on including EXCEPT THIS ENTRY I AM SORRY IF THIS ALSO UPSETS YOU BUT I WANT TO BE SURE EVERYONE KNOWS THEY CAN CALL ME ON SHIT statements until my fingers fall off, but I think I will quit now before I fall behind any more.


(Edit:
The entry that prompted this has been locked, so, uh, no, you can't see whatever it was now, unless you notice one is missing. There wasn't any drama there, anyway. I was approached through a different medium. But I don't want to draw attention to it by flat out stating which entry it was, so I will not publicly say which one it was.)

HEY SO this probably isn't really important to anyone, but I'm out of town this weekend! Because I am going to visit my brother! And have fun! Or at least delicious food. Hopefully both?


So I will be back Monday night! Approximately! If anyone needs me for anything (unlikely, but just in case!), I'll have my phone with me. The number's in this (f-locked) post.

...and a refresher for anyone else, I guess?

( Oh, right, let's cut this... )

Feel free to ask any questions about me or my life!

But first, it is still July 4^th, and I think that makes today wyntir_rose's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (Or Belated Birthday, whenever you see this? I don't know! I have not seen you floating around LJ, but that doesn't necessarily mean anything!) Don't ask me to sing.

I'm so awful about keeping on top of these. BUT I REMEMBERED THIS TIME, YAY.

( Jak X: FINISHED! )

( Death List! )

( Cumulative Death List with total )

There you have it. Irrefutable proof that this game is, in fact, beatable! (IF I CAN DO IT, SO CAN YOU. NO, I DON'T CARE WHO "YOU" IS.) Though, actually, isn't that my highest death count for all four games in the series that I've played?

Hmm. Now what?

After nearly three months of my apparently not existing according to the U.S. Postal Service, I am back.

So far this week I have received all three missing issues of Game Informer, two three, now, packages, three "letters" (all from work), and the three missing bank statements. I can sleep easier now.

In the past almost-three months, exactly one package bearing my name has arrived (from Aniko!), and everything I've tried to send since late December has come back to me or simply disappeared into the void. (It is, therefore, a very good thing for me that I faxed in my BotCon registration form, yes?)


I'M SO HAPPY! MAIL WORKS AGAIN.


... Now I need to decide how much of this stuff I should bother to resend again, since two of these letters are dated from late November/December and some of them are Christmas cards. I'll probably send the two cards, since they were requested, but... Hrm. Hey, rionaleonhart, if you see this! I have a couple very old (and pointless, but it's not like I ever promised real content) letters that got homesick and so came back. (Or maybe they are afraid of flying?) Should I give them a pep-talk and try to send them again, or just throw them out?

Dinner tonight consisted of a baked potato and chocolate cake.


I think the fumes from the wood finish (for the new windows, or at least their frames) are beginning to affect my mother in odd ways.



The router was reset, so now the internet is supposed to be working properly again. IT ISN'T. It slowly declines over time, until it is reset, and then all the sites load (and at decent speeds, too!). It's a bit strange.

The sites that won't load aren't always the same, either, which just seems a bit weird to me. There are a few that always go, though.


Unfortunately, this comes just in time for me to learn that TV Links has been shut down. Alas. What annoys me ... possibly the most about this is, after I moved Life on Mars to CD, bad things happened to the discs, so episode 6 and... the last one, I think, both have large areas that can't be played, and now I can't speedily load them for whenever my mother gets around to watching them (or, of course, whenever I want to watch them). Augh.

While on the topic of stuff to watch (or not), Torchwood is showing here, but I don't know anyone watching it. No one seems to like it. (It's really unfortunate. By all rights, it should be good. It just... isn't. Mind, that's just In My Opinion.)

Finally, I have rented Session 9, but I'm going to watch it tomorrow when it isn't cold (it's actually not cold. Temperature's up in the 70s for some unimaginably bizarre reason) and dark and raining.

Edit:
Aaaand, wow, there went the Harry Potter fandom.

My current "Thing to Obtain That Is Entirely Unnecessary But Desired Regardless" is Alternators Mirage (yeah, yeah, laugh it up. I know there's very little hope of this, but hey! I got Wheeljack! And it's not like I'm after Camshaft, in which case even I would be laughing at myself). Maybe I'll be really lucky and, not only will he ship out (again) with Ravage and Rumble, but the local Wal*Mart will actually, you know... stock them. I don't know. I haven't seen any news on which, if any, are shipping along with them. Possibly this is because no one knows.

And, of course, you'd think I'd have made this connection before, but, well. Alt. Mirage is a Ford GT - dark blue (or black? Not like I've ever seen one in person) with two white racing stripes. He causes everyone problems by never being anywhere. (The joke here is that the character Mirage has an invisibility device, so of course the reason no one can find the toy is because he's gone and turned invisible.)

I may be very wrong, here, as my Google and YouTube search skills are failing me... Didn't Jeremy Clarkson (that delightfully crazy man from Top Gear, for anyone unfortunate enough to not know that) own at one two points a ... dark blue or black Ford GT with twin stripes? (That also caused problems and has "disappeared" at least twice now?)


I... I mentioned at one point that a crossover between Top Gear and Transformers would be beyond awesome. I wasn't aware it was ... er, half-canon already, if such a term can be applied.

Of course, I could be wrong, since I can't remember what Clarkson's GT looked like. Assuming I ever knew in the first place. But if it looked like Mirage, I may have to die from glee or something.