Currents of Time

DID I EVEN MAKE ANY ENTRIES THAT WERE NOT FFXV-RELATED LAST YEAR???

Okay, there were a few in the beginning of the year. But then I was C O N S U M E D (and, spoilers, I was getting better but then EPISODE IGNIS HAPPENED AND NOW MY LIFE IS 24/7 SCREAMING ABOUT IDIOT BOYS AND THEIR STUPID GAME AND HOW MUCH I LOVE EVERYTHING AND ASDKJHSKJDFLDJGLKSMJLKSDLKNSKGBDLSA).

But ANYWAY what all did I gloss over in favour of existing in a haze of video game-induced despair (wow, thanks, escapism, not like I didn't need you more than usual last year) for like 8 months? (Okay not actually the entire reason I wasn't posting but augh: seriously, what the fuck, Square, you can't just - and - no - GRAH. But also they fixed it so most of my rage is just lingering resentment at this point. Assholes.)

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Baco wants me to share both the prettiest picture and the most inexplicable file I have saved on my computer.

THIS WAS REALLY HARD??

For most inexplicable file, I am going with this.

Yes, I know, that is a link, but it is a link to a thing my brother sent me and that I saved, and I do not know why he linked it to me or why I saved it, but it's been bouncing along on my computer for I think literally years now.

Also it's seriously hypnotic and full of WHAT.

It was that or this re-write of a Ke$ha song to fit FFXI, which I have in a word doc, and which is brilliant even if it doesn't all quite fit.


As for prettiest picture, ugh, there's basically nothing for images on here right now, so I'm going to give you one of my favourite wallpapers, instead.

Sorry! D:



UNRELATEDLY those two Megan Trainor songs they like to play on the radio? All About The Bass and that other one that I can't really understand, it's on the radio right now. I Know You Lie or something.

They make me dizzy. There's too much spinning in them. Aaaand they are songs and there's not really any actual spinning (maybe in the music videos? But I haven't seen them) and maybe that's some kind of weird synaesthesia thing or something but it's really annoying, considering how frequently I hear them.

First, thanks to everyone for the kind thoughts about my announcement (f-locked). UNFORTUNATELY, BECAUSE HOSPITALS, I've been bumped to "tentatively Tuesday." So now I have the whole weekend to work myself into a proper freak out about it. wheeeee... But I'll be able to get Friday's post up on time, at least? BUT NOT TODAY'S because I'm feeling all sad and disappointed. I'll finish it tomorrow and put it up first.

And by "and" I mean "or."

But first, have an utterly unrelated gif my brother found.

Anyway. TODAY'S TOPIC IS VAMPIRES VS. ZOMBIES: which do I prefer?

And apparently this is not even a thing for me, because yeah zombies. SORRY, VAMPIRES. I know a lot of people think you're pretty great, but I guess you don't do much for me. Maybe vampires have just been around too long, I don't know. They bite people and drink their blood and maybe make other vampires and maybe just kill, whatever. And that's basically it?

I mean, to be fair, zombies just try to eat people. BUT. Zombies, or zombie-like creatures, tend to have way more interesting stories told around them. I mean, how many "science fucks up, whoops, vampire epidemic" stories are there? Nah, they're always zombie-like. And I like zombie apocalypse stories. Maybe they're fungus zombies like in The Last Of Us, which I really need to finish watching someday, since I'm pretty sure I'll never actually play it. Resident Evil? Zombies. You could probably make an argument for some of the things in the Silent Hill series being zombies, too, if you wanted to. BAD ZOMBIE MOVIES. Hilarious. Love 'em. Bad vampire movies are usually just bad.

Also, I don't think this is a factor in my preferring zombies, but I do appreciate how zombies aren't romanticized so much. Vampires, poor things, everyone thinks they're sexy. It's hard work these days, trying to be a scary, blood-drinking monster.


I really feel like I should have more to say here, but the truth is I still kinda feel like crap and I wanna go to bed.

Okay, first, yay, Goodreads has announced their vote winners and The Martian took the trophy for Sci-Fi. That was one of the first books I read on my kindle. It was glorious. Mark is kind of a sarcastic asshole who cracks jokes because seriously, okay, he's stuck on Mars with an extremely high chance of DEATH. What the hell else do you do? I RECOMMEND IT. i was about to tell how i spent the last bit of the book trying to read from behind my hands but apparently i already made that entry


SO ANYWAY. squeemu wants to know, "The world ends, not with a bang, but a ____? BASICALLY, what is your favorite/most compelling apocalypse scenario?"

Despite (or perhaps because of?) the bizarrely high quantity of world-ending disaster fiction I read, I had to really think about this one. What I have decided on is the old classic, you know: rocks fall, everyone dies. Moons, big ol' rocks, heck space stations, whatever. Just throw it at me from space!

And then I had to think, well, why? The most immediate answer seemed, well, maybe FFXIV? That whole Apocalypse Event sure threw me for on an emotional rollercoaster, after all. But, no, there's also that The Last Policeman series that I really like (even if book 3 is still stupid expensive so I haven't been able to finish it yet... maybe the last book drops the ball) (edit: last book was amazing and I cried). Though I guess I started reading that after Dalamud started its descent.

And of course marginally more thought reminds me that FFVII ALSO featured Death From Above, and that game holds a special place in my heart, even though I've, er, never actually replayed it. I keep meaning to. It just never happens.

And even before that I, like most kids, when through an extreme dinosaur obsession phase, and what do we presume killed them off? THAT'S RIGHT. ROCKS. From spaaaaaaaaaaace.

Why, though? Is it the inevitable impending doom? The drama and angst it brings out? Is it just because I so look forward to it being miraculously averted? That only happened once. OR MAYBE TWICE I DON'T KNOW, WORLD OF TROUBLE, COULD YOU TRY BEING LESS THAN TEN DOLLARS FOR A DIGITAL COPY? I don't think it's because I look forward to it being avoided. Maybe it's because it's uncommon enough for the world to actually end that I like it? The day saving thing worked in VII, but I wouldn't change this for the world (and I guess it would literally be for that world). I STILL CAN'T WATCH THAT DAMN VIDEO WITHOUT GETTING FEELINGS ALL OVER EVERYTHING. FUCK. We still thought Eorzea as we know it was ending then. None of this "five years" shit, people were throwing around hundreds. I still kinda wish Square had gone with that. I guess if it had been an actual moon collision instead of a damn DRAGON ERUPTION it would've made more sense for it to be longer, but five years is enough time to make something of a recovery from WHOOPS YOU'RE ON FIRE. fffffffffffffffffff bahamuuuuut.



A-anyway. In reality, I expect humanity will wipe itself out either via war or environmental destruction (both, really), but there's something really compelling for me about that rock fall. Though like hell would I want to live to see one.



... oh my god this icon is actually relevant to something that never happens.



UNRELATED (mostly? I guess with a title like that it can't be entirely off-topic), so many people dislike the vocal portion of this track. I do not understand why. I think it is fantastic. DEAL WITH IT, HATERS.

I make poor financial decisions when I'm feeling down. This is not news, but I was recently forced to realise it again. Relatedly, I don't deal well with weekends, I am beginning to discover. I have no idea why this is.

Masterpiece Sideswipe is damn pretty. MP Prowl does not approve, but since that's so often the case, no one really pays much mind to it. TFSS2 Barricade is also pretty, but I still don't care much for the character. Hurry up and send the guys I actually want, FunPub. (Prowl doesn't approve of this one, either. Shut up, Prowl, or I won't get you a table to flip.)

I have three shoeboxes stuffed full of photographs and I have no idea where to start organizing them and thumbing through them mostly just makes me nostalgic and bummed.

I HOARD FOOD WHAT pretty sure it's related to not being able to ever keep much of it in the house growing up on account of dad's see-food diet. This would be less of a problem if I more diligently consumed any of it.

I love my cat she is so great awwww. I already feed bad about leaving her for the weekend in a few weeks.

Who needs other video games when I've got FFXIV and my wonderful FC.

... I need to cash in my points in XI before they reset Monday morning. If I don't get that last sheet of cobalt mythril for my DRG, I am actually going to punch myself.

In two weeks I will be getting to hang out IN REAL LIFE!! with people I have shared interests with and who at least pretend to like me. Yay! My very few local friends are always busy, and my roommates are never around. I am lonely a lot these days.

ALSO JAMES ROBERTS IS GOING TO BE AT BOTCON SHUT UP ABOUT THAT NOT BEING NEWS I DON'T CARE.

Why is it so hard to find a cute pair of dangly leaf earrings. WHY. (I suppose I could be less picky.)

So does post-travel disease. I'm home sick today with vertigo, nausea, and a fever. Super exciting. I blame the small child I spent my Sunday night red eye sitting next to. The one who kept trying to sleep and slobber all over me. ... Well, that and the sleep deprivation.


Or maybe it was my relatives. Two thirds of them were sick, and I did spend a fair amount of time around them.


I need an icon of someone faceplanting for days when I am exhausted or unwell.


ANYWAY, I went to BotCon again this year! It was in California (again), but not Pasadena. It will almost assuredly be in Pasadena next year, though. Kinda sick of Pasadena, though I like the number of friends it brings in.

Before we really get typing, though, I promised to link to both the 2011 (pt2) and 2012 entries. There ya go!

( Trip write up, go! )

Oh, oh, right, one last thing before I go: I was given a copy of the Puggle Print for free (possibly for spending too much money?), but I do not want it. I did not realise they had given it to me until later because it was hidden in my bag. Does anyone want it? It looks like this. You'll just have to cover the shipping.

Also, I present to you the most bewildering comment thread on all of my Facebook. Cookies to anyone who can make sense of it.

Just because last time I got rid of a bunch of my Transformers, I found out later that a few people who would have been interested had never seen the post.


I am getting rid of / selling at low prices (except for the BotCon figures, though those aren't marked up) a bunch of stuff. Transformers toys from Animated and the 2007 movie, as well as a few shirts and some other random bits, and Final Fantasy figures from VIII and X.


Album's here.


I'm going to be posting these other places starting either tonight or over the weekend, because I want it gone.



(Also got some free Final Fantasy stuff here.)

fffffffff cold weather. Watch now, as I hobble uselessly about my life.

ANYWAY, I survived the flu. I do not know why I get flu shots since I always get the flu regardless. I also found my desk again (though I am in the process of rapidly re-losing it), and organised the drawer. Now there is nothing in it but computer accessories.

Also I am at war with the poster over my desk because holy crap it will not stay up. I even broke out the heavy-duty wall stick-ems, but IT STILL FALLS DOWN. I am at a loss. Half a roll of double-sided tape, sticky tack, poster mounts, and now scotch tape as well because I already have everything else up there, and just, what. Stop. JUST STAY PUT WHY DO YOU HATE ME. It is not even that large. None of the other ones have this problem. My bewilderment is eclipsed only by my annoyance.


ON MONDAY MY LOVEY CUDDLE FURBALL WILL HAVE HER ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF HER BETTER LIFE awwww little kittyyyyy. She has made so much progress ohh, I am so proud of her. She is so good and cute and fuzzy. Have I ever told her story? Maybe I will do that on Monday. It is an appalling tale of distress and woe. WHAT BETTER WAY TO CELEBRATE HER ESCAPE OF IT??


Another thing I have done is MORE READING. A... geez, probably a few weeks ago, now, I read The Scorpio Races by Maggie Stiefvater and pretty much the only negative thing I have to say about it is that it ended? SO AMAZING. But then I am a terrible critiquer. THOUGH I WILL SAY it was quite obviously missing an epilogue in which ( spoilers occur ).


I AM REALLY MISSING FFXIV FOR SOME REASON? Rana, you are supposed to be suspended outside the time-space continuum, stop emoing at me about how everything you knew is gone and angst drama etc.


We started carrying Cake Boss cakes at work. They are 27 dollars and are not delicious. No one buys them. I fail to be surprised.

ALSO I AM SO FED UP WITH THESE CUSTOMERS PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD SOMEONE (a) LIST A JOB I AM ACTUALLY QUALIFIED FOR THAT IS NOT JUST RETAIL IN ANOTHER LOCATION AND (b) HIRE ME. Else I shall scream and start throwing things.


Keane is performing in town on Tuesday night and I have it off and I HAVE NO MONEY AND SO CANNOT GO you guys it is so depressing I HAD TO BORROW MONEY FROM MY ROOMMATES TO PAY BILLS why does my boss hate me and refuse to schedule me. DOES MY LOYALTY AND PUNCTUALITY AND HARD WORK COUNT FOR NOTHING? Obviously. Sobbing forever now.

I am so. Tired. Work is actually killing me. Also I have joined the ranks of my coworkers in possession of a doctor's note limiting what work I can do, though mine at least has nothing to do with lifting. My back hurts so much. I am having muscle spasms near the middle. They have been going on for a little over six weeks. I mentioned them in an earlier entry. Basically: pain. Pain forever. I do not want to talk about work, though. It makes me angry. Also I am an emo twit who hates herself.

I did a bunch of other stuff in XIII-2 and had some final thoughts but oh my god I cannot be bothered to dig out the word document. Also, I no longer have it. I sent it on to its owner. It was a very sad day. Also game related, I got to play a little of the Diablo III open beta last night, and now I am sad the game is expensive, 'cause I actually had a lot of fun, and now I kinda miss running around smacking hellspawn to death.


So. They put the first season of Prime up on Netflix, so what the hell, I went and watched the whole thing, and then found season 2 on youtube, so I am actually all caught up! Actually, it was really exciting. We decided to spring for television (we have not had it, obviously), and the local provider has updated their stations listing since last I checked, which means we now get The Hub in Vermont, and also that I now get it in my bedroom. Haha! So Saturday, it was super exciting. First, I woke up and watched Korra! (... is anyone else watching that? I have not seen one single mention of it, though I admit I've been missing a lot lately on account of EXHAUSTED AND SORE. If you are not watching Avatar: Legend of Korra, YOU SHOULD BE, because it is amazing and wonderful and Korra, herself, is fantastic and oh my gosh) And then I tottered around a while and then I got to watch My Little Pony! And it ended up being two episodes, but that was okay because I didn't have to work until 2:30, so I have just enough time to make it in on time. AND THEN I got a ride home, so I got to watch TF: Prime! So it was a very exciting television day for me. Three shows! In one day! I cannot remember the last time I ever did that.


ANYWAY, the real point of this entry, BotCon is in like three days somehow (oh god, I still need to arrange transport from/back to the airport and find a place to stay Sunday night), so on Thursday I will get on a plane and fly down to Texas to be murdered by a tornado. (Actually, death by tornado is unlikely, if only because it might be somewhat of a blessing at this point.) I know most people I know are not going this year, so does anyone want me to look for anything for them? I'm not really shopping for myself this year, anyway.

Also, does anyone have an interest in any of the box set figures (aside from Soundwave, who's spoken for)?