Currents of Time

SOMETIMES MY FRUSTRATION AT MY INABILITY TO FINISH SCENES MANIFESTS IN BIZARRE WAYS.

[00:25] JeccaAM: raragfds
[00:27] JeccaAM: “Hello,” she says, for lack of anything better. Her voice cracks.
[00:28] JeccaAM: "I see you've finished having screaming fits at everyone to pass by. Should I take this to mean you're getting better or that you're about to keel over dead?"
[00:28] JeccaAM: "um," hotaru replied intelligently.
[00:29] JeccaAM: "I see," the nurse said, nodding, as she made a note on a clipboard. "I'll have them up your medication, then."
[00:30] JeccaAM: Hotaru bit her lip. "um. Do you... see that?" she asked, pointing towards the opposite corner of the room.
[00:30] JeccaAM: "Oh, her?" the nurse asked, not actually looking. "Yes, she's been there for a few days now."
[00:30] JeccaAM: The girl in the corner twitched and started gnawing on her wrist.
[00:31] JeccaAM: "... shouldn't you... stop her?" Hotaru asked, concerned.
[00:31] JeccaAM: "She'll stop in a minute," the nurse replied, shrugging. "Mostly she sits there making faces and trying to form coherent sentences on the paper we provide her."
[00:31] JeccaAM: "... I see," Hotaru said.
[00:32] JeccaAM: "Why can't you just have a normal conversation?" the girl suddenly howled, burying both hands in her hair and rocking back and forth.
[00:33] JeccaAM: "Sorry," Hotaru said, raising a hand as the nurse turned to leave, "but d'you think I could maybe get a different room...?"
[00:33] JeccaAM: "I hate you," the girl snarled.

One of the main reasons I so rarely write (and even more rarely actually post) anything featuring any of my casts of original characters / original universes (aside, of course, from the obvious that most people don't find other people's original stuff all that wildly interesting, right) is that none of them can ever make their own stupid minds up and I apparently don't care enough to tell them to shut up, sit down, and deal with that they gave me to work with.

So I keep feeling like canon is contradicting itself (it isn't, exactly), and it's... well, not annoying, I like learning new things about it all, but come on, couldn't you have told me some of this stuff earlier?





.... okay, random, playing FFXI (well, waiting on my HP to get back up) and someone sends me a /tell asking where to find the wyvern egg in the Maze of Shakhrami. (To be fair, I am on Dragoon.) heh. Hope I explained it right. A bit hard to be sure when I'm in a different area and so don't have access to a map of the place...


FREE DAY TOMORROW. I will watch things. It will be awesome.

In the past two days, I've come up with at least six greatly differing reasons for PlotPoint K-and-a-half to happen. It all leads to (mostly) the same result, but with the surrounding situation completely changed.

And three for another idea, as well as a couple completely new ones.

Some of these take place in the beginning and some take place in the middle, and none of them affect the intended ending by too much, but obviously has an impact on the stor as a whole.


This is the reason I don't post solid parts of things prior to completion.


(For a shining example of Jecca's Inability To Pick One Idea And Stick With It, I point you to the changes to the Decepticon line up for "GT."

A lone ">" indicates only a short consideration, each added "-" represents a longer time.

Seekers > Stunticons ---> Swindle --> Random Assortment? > Stunticons -> Combaticons-> some of the Combaticons, including Swindle ----> Decepticharge -> Never directly address it? > Combaticons -> False Information, there are no Decepticons actually stationed there -> Battle, ie Corvette, Ravage-> Battle, ie Corvette, Ravage and Rumble --> Ravage and Battle Ravage ---> Ravage and Rumble ---> Ravage, changing to or from Battle Ravage at some point, and Rumble -> Ravage and Rumble -> Rumble and Battle Ravage drone -> Ravage+Battle Ravage drone -------> Ravage+Battle Ravage drone and Rumble.

I WENT FROM JETS TO CASSETTES. Admittedly, it took me how long to write? And some of those choices - once I'd decided to just toss G1 completely and go AU-Alternators Universe - were based strictly on, "but they do/n't have an Alternators toy..." The final call was a last minute change to put Rumble back into the scenes I'd pulled him out, either by find-and-replace or a complete rewrite.)




... This makes three times in one day that this song has suddenly appeared in my life. Linkshell, a voice post (which wasn't entirely a surprise because I read the comments first, but whatever), and now the radio.

I should have seen the radio one coming. They're going through their playlist alphabetically and they're in the "N" section.

Jecca, driving to work. It's a beautiful day and there's not a cloud in the solid blue sky. The sun is somewhere overhead, completely out of her field of vision.


She thinks, genuinely confused: But I turned weather effects back on last night.



Then she nearly crashed the car in horror.




In FFXI, when you disable weather, you not only turn off actual weather - rain and snow and wind and the like - you turn off sky effects. No clouds, no stars at night. There's still a sun and a moon, but the sun's often directly overhead and not in your field of vision. I play with weather effects off most of the time, because some effects, especially dust storms, make my computer lag up. Lagging is not something I can afford, as timing is very important to a thief. I turn them on for short periods of time when I know I won't be in places with EXTREME WEATHER or if I'm not planning on partying. Reference shots of sky, 11 am (game time): weather on, weather off.

I cannot believe I actually thought that. I just... I've never done anything like that before, completely misplacing reality in such a manner. I am both mortified and appalled.

My dearest, darling Brain, I have but one very short, very simple message for you:



NO.

Jecca's day:

( Chatlogs with Brain )

So apparently I am writing this now, because Aniko likes my Brain and feeds it Brain-cookies, and the thing was writing itself anyway, and augh.

Jeremy Clarkson =/= Gene Hunt



SO STOP IT.


No more watching Life on Mars with my mother, apparently. Tomorrow I will stalk Top Gear clips on YouTube until my mind oozes out through my ears.

Was I thinking too much, or not enough? Either way, the ridiculously high levels of emo that had started to take over have been driven back out. Victory!

I really do hate it when that happens. Someday I will figure out what triggers it, and then I will not have to deal with it anymore. (And someday we will all have flying unicorns. gaaah)


More GT may finally be coming around! (Yes, that appears to have become its working title, if only because I am the worst person in the world at titling things.) There also appears to be a very odd off-shoot of it crawling around in my head. We're blaming Aniko (again) for that branch, but it was my own Brain that decided the two were connected, so, eh. This is quickly turning into a very bizarre alternate universe. ... In which other alternate universe versions of some of the characters in it have cameos. (No, really. I've already written some of it and it is... bizarre.)

Can I chalk this up to sleep deprivation? I've got about six hours for the last three or four days and it has to be affecting me by this point.

I'm honestly not sure there are words to convey how frustrated I am to find myself wondering whether Alternators Prime or Windcharger would make a better mod to Perceptor.

...as soon as I stop finding them. Man, we have got too many old computers around here.

This is, uh... bit of a joke between a friend and I, really. In short, cactuars are evil (that is a strange story. I might tell it sometime when I am bored) and pairing names sound funnier than they should sometimes.

( Apocalyptic Fresh! It's like an Infomercial or something. )

I'd apologize for this, but I'm not sorry. :P


...I swear I just heard "Wheelie, don't you lose my number" (as opposed to the actual lyrics, "Billy"). ... Possibly it is time to go to bed, then. o_O;