HEY GUYS REMEMBER HOW I SAID I DIDN'T REALLY HAVE ANY PLANS FOR AN OVERARCHING PLOT IN OKAME-VERSE



TURNS OUT I TOTALLY LIED



HAHA





KILL ME





with thanks to [livejournal.com profile] mysticeden for enduring my brainrambles and for being familiar enough with the pair to actually contribute to the conversation
I was thinking about writing and characters and fanfiction versus original fiction and all that sort of stuff this evening while waiting for the dishes to dry so I could cook dinner! And. I was going to go into some wordy back story here, but really it was only ever one person, wasn't it? I don't know. I know other people's original characters/universes are generally not that exciting! TOO BAD I'M TALKING ABOUT IT ANYWAY. Anyway. One or two people have, on occasion, asked something about Okame-verse (which still needs a better name) and the timeline and overall storyline and I... generally don't have an answer for it! And I (finally?) put the why behind that into words. A lot of the time when you've got characters that you write about, you write, you know, a story. And, the thing is, with those two, there isn't really one. There's no big, overreaching ... thing. I mean, when I write about them, it's just an incident in their lives. That's all.

I do have a universe or two with, you know, actual plots (I've pretty much never posted about them, though), but this isn't one of them.

And sometimes I feel kind of bad, or weird about that? I dunno. Like, how does Okame freaking out this time relate to wherever you're eventually going with this? And I'm not eventually going anywhere with any of it. I mean, yeah, sure, depending on when in their lives I write them, they act different, or stuff has changed, but they're (probably) never going to do anything special or, uh. Interesting, even, haha. I just like them. Even if they won't ever solve the world crisis of doom or save the whales or anything.

I was going to make an allcaps-y sentence about how they're both weird and dysfunctional and totally not girlfriends shut up Jade will kill you, but I feel like I've been seeing a lot of internet drama lately and don't want anyone to jump on me for accusing [x] group of people of being completely mad. Or socially inept. Or dysfunctional. Or ... whatever. So, uh, I guess I won't.


Good sign you've been spending too much time pounding away at a word doc (EVEN IF YOU AREN'T GETTING ANYWHERE ARGH RAGE): you keep reflexively hitting ctrl-s every paragraph or so. I've attempted to save the update page five or six times now. Good job, self!

And now boring real life whining )

For your daily dose of is she really still talking about that?, San d'Oria took Sarutabaruta in conquest this week, which is pretty awesome! We've claimed Gustaberg quite a few times, but we've only rarely taken Saru[tab] and, to my unending frustration, those times have always been during weeks I haven't logged on for whatever reason. (Oh, yes, this is FFXI-talk now, if you didn't know what any of this was about.) BUT THIS WEEK - haha! So now I've run supplies to the outpost by Windurst and so now I have finally done the supplies quest for every outpost (on Hisime, and that I have access to, anyway. No Sky yet, but that's the only one, now). I took Aya and Ki out, too, since, you know, Windurst? FAR AWAY. And Ki can't airship it, so, uh, yeah. Long trip for her no matter how you go about it. (EXCEPT NOT ANYMORE i love op warp)

Also, it's been over a year and a half since my brother started trying for the m.kris and all it's got him so far is a couple hundred thousand gil down the drain. He's considering giving up and, since that would mean he can't go anywhere (or going to gt a Joyeuse, which he doesn't have time for), quitting. So right now he's trying to come up with a way to make 3.5 million, because the thought of fishing for more marlin (only for, again, absolutely none of them to give a chart, and even if they did, for the fight to them only give us another fuscina or piece of oxblood and a dwarf pugil) is too unbearable. Dear SE: it would not kill you to be just a little nicer to your playerbase on occasion!


To end on a random note, here's an amusing article on why the US Life on Mars was STUPID. Or at least not as good as the original. Reading that has had the perhaps unfortunate side effect of making me want to rewatch the original again.
I keep going to write with my left hand. I am mostly ambidextrous, but I generally don't do that. Writing and drawing are probably the only two things I consistently use my right hand for. It's working out so far, though obviously the letters look different (and I keep drawing stick-figures upside down), but, uh. Why am I doing this? Maybe the right hand is tired. Maybe the left hand feels neglected. Maybe this is just one of those weird things that happens on occasion.

Not entirely unrelated, I found out the other day that my father, while he uses his right hand now, isn't entirely sure which hand would have been his dominant hand. Maybe he was left handed, or maybe he was just mirroring the way the other kids wrote when he was younger. (My mother has always used her left hand.)

(Or maybe my brain is just confused. My left eye and foot are dominant, so you'd think maybe I'd be left handed, as well, but no. I grew up using my right hand. Don't know when I started using my left hand, too. I hold my silverware opposite, but am not sure if I always did that. I don't even know. Jumbled brain ftw.)


Contemplating some of my original characters... Some ideas I have I know are... well, not bad, but not ones that would ever actually be used? Just ones that keeping coming around through my head on occasion. I actually do want to do more to address one of them, from Jade and Okame-verse, but it would be more of yet another OKAME'S BRAIN IS WRONG YAY and less No, really, this is fact. The only problem for that would be coming up with a reason for Jade to actually leave, which is unlikely, at best. Unless Okame goes away, which could work, but I am less comfortable with that route. I don't know.

Since I just wrote that entire paragraph without actually explaining what I was thinking about, the idea is that Jade doesn't actually exist. She's just something Hotaru invented, or part of her sanity or something. I do like to think this is something she occasionally worries about when she's having one of her worse fits, but it's not actually true.

ARGH I WANT TO WRITE THIS. SOMEDAY. SOMEHOW. GONNA MAKE IT ALL RIGHT BUT NOT RIGHT NOW I KNOW YO-- stop that, mental jukebox.
Title: In The Blood
Author: Jecca Meitahn / [livejournal.com profile] twilit_wanderer
Wordcount: 1,400
Rating: T-ish, I guess...? I never know how to rate these things!
Warnings: Potentially disturbing, distinct lack of sanity
Summary: The time between Hotaru’s first and second meeting with Jade.
Disclaimer: Jade (who spends the entire duration unconscious and is never actually named here) is mine. Hotaru Okame is not, but I was given free use of her by her creator.
Notes: This was going to be longer, but it decided it wanted to be in two parts, so I decided to finish this up, code it, and post it. Looked over by [livejournal.com profile] aerinity (thank you again!).

In The Blood )

*END*
SOMETIMES MY FRUSTRATION AT MY INABILITY TO FINISH SCENES MANIFESTS IN BIZARRE WAYS.

[00:25] JeccaAM: raragfds
[00:27] JeccaAM: “Hello,” she says, for lack of anything better. Her voice cracks.
[00:28] JeccaAM: "I see you've finished having screaming fits at everyone to pass by. Should I take this to mean you're getting better or that you're about to keel over dead?"
[00:28] JeccaAM: "um," hotaru replied intelligently.
[00:29] JeccaAM: "I see," the nurse said, nodding, as she made a note on a clipboard. "I'll have them up your medication, then."
[00:30] JeccaAM: Hotaru bit her lip. "um. Do you... see that?" she asked, pointing towards the opposite corner of the room.
[00:30] JeccaAM: "Oh, her?" the nurse asked, not actually looking. "Yes, she's been there for a few days now."
[00:30] JeccaAM: The girl in the corner twitched and started gnawing on her wrist.
[00:31] JeccaAM: "... shouldn't you... stop her?" Hotaru asked, concerned.
[00:31] JeccaAM: "She'll stop in a minute," the nurse replied, shrugging. "Mostly she sits there making faces and trying to form coherent sentences on the paper we provide her."
[00:31] JeccaAM: "... I see," Hotaru said.
[00:32] JeccaAM: "Why can't you just have a normal conversation?" the girl suddenly howled, burying both hands in her hair and rocking back and forth.
[00:33] JeccaAM: "Sorry," Hotaru said, raising a hand as the nurse turned to leave, "but d'you think I could maybe get a different room...?"
[00:33] JeccaAM: "I hate you," the girl snarled.
I think this is supposed to be some sort of meme-thing where people request the subject, but no one ever asks for these two, and on the rare occasion someone does, they never include a prompt, and I WANT TO WRITE THEM, (and also I'm not sure if it's 5:1 or 4:1, but) so I'm utterly disregarding whatever rules that are possibly supposed to be had for this.

So there.

(Though I guess since I'm mentioning this, if anyone wants to request Jecca try this with anything else, go ahead. I'll try anything once, at least.)

Anyway, Jade and Okame, mostly Okame. Mostly Okame being crazy, or having crazy forced upon her, or something. ... The usual, really. No, I'm never going to stop posting about them. I like them.

Title: Five Incidents
Author: Jecca Meitahn / [livejournal.com profile] twilit_wanderer
Wordcount: 1,810
Rating: T-ish - seriously, I never know how to rate these things
Warnings: Potentially disturbing, distinct lack of sanity, fem-slash of a sort (extremely mild, more like pre-slash)
Summary: Four times Okame had dreams (none of them nice) and one time she didn't.
Disclaimer: Jade's mine. Okame's not. I was given free use of her by her creator, and I'm going to assume this still applies, even though we no longer speak to each other.

Five Incidents )

*END*


To clarify, Okame doesn't severely freak out every night she's by herself, and this went on for far longer than four days/nights before Jade clued in and moved Okame into her own room and took up residence on the floor.

Also, there's a line in the second part referencing a poison. I didn't expand on it here, because doing so felt extremely out of place, but that is established. See Jade's "brief" history here.
You've have heard me mention Jade and Okame before. [livejournal.com profile] thebaconfat expressed curiosity, and I am unfortunately fond of discussing the pair. But there's so much! Where to start? I figure the basic profiles I have written up for the two's as good a place as any. (These are prone to changes, as this universe is far from completely established and I'm constantly learning new things about both of them. I mean, the "wait, they're in a relationship?" thing was something that blindsided me two or three years after their creation.)

Okame )

Jade )

There will... probably be more later. Like, when I have more than five minutes to do stuff in. This stuff here is all saved in word documents, so it's not like I had to type it all up! I want to be less busy now. But! I have carrot cake and ... er, five different things of ice cream (vanilla, raspberry-and-white-chocolate, cherry-and-dark-chocolate, and two different Ben & Jerry's, but I don't remember what! They came home from work with my mother). So, life isn't too bad. Just busy.

And there's a massive spider living in the bathroom! This makes showering very awkward.

Is anyone else having troubles with comment notifications? Sometimes it's LJ and sometimes it's my e-mail account, and I can never figure out which. Either way, it's mildly annoying.
Those of you not familiar with the characters of Jade and Hotaru (Okame is her last name, and often how I refer to her) will find this, at best, disjointed, bizarre, and possibly quite stupid. (I'll probably be posting an entry or two about them and their 'verse in the near future, for those of you who aren't but might want to be familiar with them.) This, though? I don't even know. The strangest things set that girl off sometimes. ... This is, apparently, brought on by toothpaste. Okame. You so crazy.

[livejournal.com profile] mysticeden, I guess this is for you, since you've been wanting to see more of these two.

Title: Taste
Author: Jecca Meitahn / [livejournal.com profile] twilit_wanderer
Wordcount: 471
Rating: T
Warnings: Distinct lack of sanity, fem-slash of a sort (nothing explicit)
Summary: She hates the taste.
Disclaimer: Jade's mine. Okame's not. I was given free use of her by her creator, and I'm going to assume this still applies, even though we no longer speak to each other.

Taste )

*END*
jecca_mehlota: (I (might have) had dignity once.)
( Nov. 2nd, 2007 10:39 pm)
Another box of old supplies and folders and papers yields more surprises, these ones less glee-inducing than the ridiculous stick figures and notes from school and the like!

In this box, I found a bunch of my old drawings/sketches, which isn't so bad except I could draw even less then than I can now, which means a lot of it's really awful. Also, some of its stuff based of things I was writing at the time, and therefore irredeemably bad solely on principle.

And, of course, a lot of old writing. AUGH AUGH BURN IT. WHAT WAS I THINKING. (To be honest, I knew it was awful at the time, but was forcing myself to write something every day and so just ended up writing it anyway.)

IT IS SO, SO AWFUL. UGH. UGH.

I have no idea what to do with any of it, either! I try not to throw out any of my old work, but this is seriously, seriously awful stuff.


There are approximately TEN THOUSAND (probably more) hand written pages of notes from video games. Bits of script, key combinations, item locations, puzzle clues, oh, God, you name it, if it's from Final Fantasy VII, VIII (especially VIII), IX, X, X-2, Chrono Cross, or Kingdom Hearts, I've got it. I honestly cannot believe the amount of stuff I have written down. THANK GOD FOR PERSONAL COMPUTERS AND INTERNET. I can just get rid of all this stuff.


At the bottom of the box, I found some slightly more recent stuff - from about 2003, I'd imagine. It's pages and pages and pages and notebooks and... everything, just everything full of notes and images and character bios and just information on a story I had planned to start writing featuring characters created by my friends and I. Just for fun, you know? Everyone seemed really into it, then all of a sudden they all weren't. It was a very abrupt change and I never quite figured out what triggered it.

But looking at this stuff just makes me sad. I remember when I was friends with people and stuff and it just ... it's upsetting, and what I really want to do is talk to something about this stuff, but there is no one online right now except my brother, who wouldn't even pretend to care, and I know my parents wouldn't care, either. I don't want to SAY it, I want someone to HEAR it. I guess I will keep it bottled up forever instead or something. BLEH.

On the more positive side, since this is the universe that Jade and Okame were originally inhabiting, there's a bunch of stuff on them. Most of it's out of date and none of it's actual writing, but there are some little doodles that I really like. And, oh, God, it was so obvious even then that they were completely together. How did I manage to not notice that for so many years?
jecca_mehlota: (work)
( Aug. 11th, 2007 09:52 pm)
As copied from [livejournal.com profile] thebaconfat:

When you see this, post a little weensy excerpt from as many random works-in-progress as you can find lying around. Who knows? Maybe inspiration will burst forth and do something, um, inspiration-y.

I am not prolific and I rarely finish anything, but instead of continuing to make excuses, I will shut up and post what I have.

Transformers/Top Gear Crossover: GT )

Transformers Alternators/Smallest TFs crossover-of-sorts insane-fic )

FFXI: An Evening In Buburimu (cont) )

Original Characters: Jade and Hotaru 1 )

Jade and Hotaru, round 2 )


... whoo.

Complete tangent. I went to the toy store today and, okay, so they had no Transformers toys (this was not a surprise), but they do, apparently, have Transformers posters! Whoo! They carry one with the movie Autobots, one with the Movie Decepticons, and one with an assortment of the G1 Autobots (ala Dreamwave art), but they only had the Decepticon one. PURCHASED. Will have to check back for others, because... Posters with Transformers! Hooray!
Back in January, I was struck by madness and slammed this thing into a word document. It's two original characters. One of them - Jade - is mine. Hotaru Okame was created by [livejournal.com profile] travelers_flame but I've been given free reign over her. I did ask specific permission to do this, though, because it's not nice to send anyone to Silent Hill.

They both have quite a bit of history behind them (and, yes, they are in a very, very bizarre and messed up relationship of sorts). If anyone aside from Ani actually reads this and wants to know what the heck is going on, uh. Ask. I am really only posting this now because, well, for one, Silent Hill has literally come up from six different people in the last 36 hours or so, and Okame and Jade've been bugging me, so I ended up asking Aniko if she'd seen the entirety of this story (I know I'd sent her the beginning). No, she'd not, but all I could find was the one saved with html-tags, so instead of cutting them all out, I just posted it.

This is... fairly unedited. I'm rather bad at editing my own work, so couple that with me being up literally all night writing this and you've probably got a lot of missing words. Oops. >.>? Feel free to point out any errors.

Endtil )

So, uh... yeah, there was stuff I wanted to say about this but I can't remember any of it right now. Probably either edit it in or just make a new post later. Fun times. Any questions? Final thoughts? HOW MUCH DO I SUCK OH GOD I MUST KNOW PLEASE. Please understand, I hate all of my work. No amount of praise will change my mind, so certainly don't feel the need to! It's a win/win situation for everyone! Except Aniko, who continues to try to convince me I am not as awful as I imagine.

Also I hate the ending. Hate the last word (Okame's creator does like it, but she is not me), but not sure where else to put it and I feel it to be necessary. Does anyone have any suggestions for what I could do with that, or does it not suck as much as I think it does? >_>;


And now in a different conversation with someone else, the idea of Hisime going to Silent Hill has come up. That is horrifying! Hisime should not be sent to Silent Hill and I refuse to go along with you, Brain!

This is like some kind of sign, isn't it? Why is everyone talking about Silent Hill all of a sudden?
My laptop's almost completely full. Time to back-up and delete a load of files. This is, I suspect, going to hurt. A lot. I think a lot of it is screenshots saved from Final Fantasy XI and those are my memories! yes, yes, I know I am pathetic. I think I can lose most of the random party screenshots, but I am keeping the Linkshell adventures.

Now we talk about television that we watch on our computer!

Only two episodes left. )

Because I am a firm believer in abrupt and nonsensical changes in the topic of conversation, I am now going to talk about one of my original characters.

Because, really, why not? )

I actually put Okame through Silent Endtil Hill once. It suited her well (she is so crazy), but I don't think she'll ever forgive me for it. (Though the few people who've read it seem to think the story itself was fairly decent, which is very surprising to me. I have low self esteem. Can you tell? ^__^ ...I'm not asking for praise or comfort or reassurance or anything, I'm just putting it out there. I'm aware of it and I try to ignore it. Sometimes it even works, somehow.


Anyway, so. My department's assistant manager seems to have come to the conclusion that I have no idea how to close the bakery, despite having been there for ten months and closing by myself for nine and a half of those. I should like to think that, were I forgetting something, someone would mention it. One does not need to leave me a note telling me to put the muffins in the case. Really. I know. Maybe she secretly hates me and wants me to know but doesn't want to get in trouble with the store managers for it. Oh, yeah? WELL, IT WON'T WORK! I HATE YOU, TOO!

... SO THERE!
I inflicted the Silent Hill / Original Character story on someone, and I think it went over fairly well. Possibly I can rest easier now, knowing I have at least shared the insanity, if not disposed of it. Really it'd be boring without it.

Talking. )


Anyway, beta-reading may have been a false alarm, as I've not heard back since sending a reply, but knowing FF.net, it may just be that it hasn't gotten through yet. I HATE YOU TOO, FF.NET! Whatever.

I need something to do. ARG.

And no, you stupid arachnids, going through my room and systematically eradicating every last one of you doesn't count!


*edits IM text and annoys everyone*



Completely off-topic now, but, haha, wow. Is that for real? If Wheeljack were human, he would do things like that, I think... XD Nifty idea and all, but... And those headlights are kind of a giant SHOOT HERE.


Had a storm last night. Snow and ice. Finally! \o.o/


Edit:
And the eternal question. Do I repaint this guy as Comics Ratchet or as Cartoon Ratchet? Oh, dilemma.

The other question is what to do with this Ricochet, now that I've stolen his head and replaced it with Rollbar's. Also, I need to finish buying paint.
We're going to restore it soon (because, wow, it's a completely new level of "doesn't work"), which means I'm looking through the old files and pulling out the ones I want to keep. This is the one that can't send email (or do much of anything, really. I'm not sure why the internet works on it, to be honest), so, uh, yeah. 'Nother file transfer post, here.

Stumbled upon a thing I wrote a while back (don't remember when) featuring the original character of a friend of mine. (Incidentally, the same one I was up all last night writing about. Creepy coincidences get along well with her. Go away, Silent Hill / OC crossover.) (Jade is my character, but the main person here is not. (un?)Fortunately, Hotaru's creator allows me to do pretty much anything I want with her.)

This girl is craaazy. )

And now I must accompany my mother to her Christmas Eve church-thing. By "now" I mean, in an hour.


Edit:
Hotaru? Look, I'm terribly sorry, but as you no doubt know already, I had a nice chat with your creator tonight, and she fully endorses your jaunting through Silent Hill. What's more, she even rather liked the bits that I showed her from the story.

Guess you're stuck with this.

...And if anyone could explain why I suddenly find myself writing characters into Silent Hill scenarios on Christmas / Eve, I'd... greatly appreciate it, really. I mean, of all days.
It's 6 am and I've yet to go to bed because I've been up all night writing an insane little story.

Hopefully, she doesn't mind me doing this to her original character.


Me, I'm trying to figure out how I went from Transformers to Doctor Who to Silent Hill to Major Original Universe #3 to MOU3 and Silent Hill all in under five minutes. Obviously shampoo does incredibly strange things to my brain, because this stuff always happens in the shower.

...I'm also still trying to figure out why I'm writing it. Oh, I am sorry, 'Taru. If it makes you feel better, I'm sure Jade is going to murder me for this. Hopefully tomorrow I will talk to your creator and she'll tell me to stop this (despite having forfeited writing claims on you to me). Because I will listen to her if she does. (For all the good stopping here will do, seeing as how I'm, you know, done with it already. Erm.)

That all said, I totally fail at writing Silent Hill-esque things. Also, this thing is distressingly similar to SH2 in places, but I'm not sure how else I could have done this. I mean... arg. I didn't even realize it until I was writing the last scene. *facepalm*
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