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jecca_mehlota) wrote2007-05-07 02:37 am
jecca_mehlota) wrote2007-05-07 02:37 am
What, as opposed to one of those, "I really, really like you" sort of murders?
My laptop's almost completely full. Time to back-up and delete a load of files. This is, I suspect, going to hurt. A lot. I think a lot of it is screenshots saved from Final Fantasy XI and those are my memories! yes, yes, I know I am pathetic. I think I can lose most of the random party screenshots, but I am keeping the Linkshell adventures.
Now we talk about television that we watch on our computer!
Life on mars (I have given up on trying to get the "M" to capitalize when typing the title. It just never works) is almost over? What? No! Blearg! The ... surreality of it still tickles my brain. Is Sam really only in a coma? If he really is only in a coma, how come reality at least appears to shift on occasion? I am especially curious about Maya and her kidnapping. She's back, but was it because they had rescued her or because she'd never been caught, or what? If she'd never been taken or whatever, he'd not have ended up being hit and knocked out/into the past/whatever.
Maybe he wasn't really hit by a car at all. Maybe he was already out of it at that point and just coma-dreamed the kidnapping.
WHERE DOES REALITY START?
I think I'm thinking about this too much again and should just shut up and finish the series, already, instead. It is very late, anyway, so I'm sure I'm forgetting important details. (Actually, I was asleep, but now I am awake and unable to get to sleep again, so here we are. Writing a paper on insomnia seems to have been a rather terrible idea, as ever since I seem to have been inflicted with it.)
I do have to give the writers some credit. They're trying very, very hard to show Sam and Annie as a couple.
I feel kind of bad for them, considering how well it's just not working. There's no real dynamic between them. (Well, I mean, there is, just not much of one and not a very exciting one at that. It seems more of a older brother/younger sister thing, almost.)
(...Chris is just always eating, isn't he?)
Because I am a firm believer in abrupt and nonsensical changes in the topic of conversation, I am now going to talk about one of my original characters.
I have a lot of original characters. I have less original universes, but that's because I don't need a new world for every character. Thank God, really, because I don't think I'd ever manage to work them all out or keep them straight if I did.
Back in, oh, I think it was autumn of 2002, I got the idea into my head that it'd be fun to write a story featuring a cast of characters created by people I knew. I had a basic plot worked out, one that was simple enough that I could take it and twist it to, at least initially, fit the characters and their backgrounds. I asked pretty much everyone I knew to create me a character. Some created more than one, which was fine. They seemed to have fun with it, and I was fairly certain I could find a place for most everyone, even if it was just a cameo. Got the majority of the characters, picked the main crew, started on the plot. Unfortunately for me, the people who'd created the characters didn't want to work with me at all, and I wasn't able to ask them clarifying questions about their characters.
Rather than destroy their characters, I eventually dropped the idea. This was made very easy when I graduated and went off to college. I've not heard from ... all but three of the people I used to speak to since June, 04.
My character, though, she hung around, and I was really very surprised by that. I'd given her the name "Jade." At the time, Jade was sort of my generic name for most everything (I like the stone, meh). Online character for Diabolo II? Jade's in the name. AOL handle? Jade's in there somewhere. Random minor character in a story? Jade. Brother wants to rename "Dagger" / Garnet in FFIX but can't come up with a name? Jade. It was never fully 'assigned' to anyone. I never expected it to stick. It was Generic Name and I fully expected it to stay that way.
And then Jade went and gave herself a last name, wandered into the head-space, sullenly plunked herself down in the corner and pitched camp.
Jecca: You can go now, I don't need you anymore.
Jade: *eyebrow*
Jecca: ...erm.
Her companion turned up, too, which was really weird, since I didn't actually create Hotaru Okame. Someone else did, but we decided the two usually traveled and worked together.
In retrospect, it shouldn't've been so surprising. Okame's creator doesn't, as far as I know, ever write anything (aside from school work which, of course, doesn't actually count). She doesn't read fanfiction or really delve into fandoms, to my knowledge. Honestly, I think she's missing out. Fandoms are great places. On the other hand, I am slightly envious, as I am sure fandom can be blamed for the majority of my insanity.
Since Jade had taken on a life of her own (I mean that in a less-than-literal sense, in a way. I do not have multiple personalities or identity disassociation to my knowledge, but I have head characters, and you either know what I mean by that or you don't. There's really no explaining it), it kind of figures Okame'd do the same.
So, finding her place of origin lacking, Okame moved in and I found myself questioning her creator on things she'd never really thought to tell me about, and that is always a little disturbing.
Jecca: You didn't tell me she has a weird hang-up with eyes.
Okame's creator: ...How do you know about that?
Jecca: Please don't ask.
Later we realized (while I was in Maine and she was still back at home and neither of us were really communicating with the other. I'm telling you, it's creepy) there was a little more to their relationship than we'd originally thought and intended, but, well, there's not much one can do about it when one's characters take their lives into their own hands. Surprise!
Anyway, there's your not-so-quick backstory to their creation, even if it doesn't tell you anything about the two of them.
Thing is, I really, really like the two of them. They're not usually very intrusive characters. They don't sit on my shoulder and demand I write about them all day, every day, for which I am immensely thankful. They do occasionally hit me with a plot, hard, and those usually get written in just one or two sittings, but it's not really very common. I'd actually like to write more of them, but since the original world they'd been intended for fell apart, I'd need to build up a new one, and I'm... trying very hard not to start building new Massive Plot Arcs at the moment. I've already got a few too many.
(Heaven help me if I ever start writing that one story. I desperately want to, but at the same time I'm not sure if I'd be able to handle it. That cast of characters is very... difficult to work with.)
I really like the relationship the two have. It's a bit of a strange one, actually. Each needs the other, and each is aware that it runs both ways, but neither of them ever talk about it. One, because Jade doesn't do emotions, or so she'd like people to believe. Whenever anyone confronts her about her caring, even just a bit, about Okame, she either dismisses it with a flippant remark or ignores it outright. Two, because they don't really need to.
They kind of stabilize each other. If you know anything about Okame, that is perhaps the most absurd statement you have ever seen from me. Okame and stable don't often fit in the same sentence very well. Prior to their meeting, Okame... was not rooted in reality. At all. She was lost, disoriented, and, really, about to eaten alive and completely unaware of it, while Jade was a loose cannon and it was (er, still is, really, just to a much lesser extent) only a matter of time before she self-destructed. Somehow the two compliment each other just right, and I really love it whenever I'm able to explore the relationship between the two of them.
It doesn't happen often enough! Hey, you two! You're allowed to bother me a lot more than you do, I promise!
... woah. My train of thought just derailed in a rather spectacular fashion. Time to wrap this up, I guess.
I actually put Okame through SilentEndtil Hill once. It suited her well (she is so crazy), but I don't think she'll ever forgive me for it. (Though the few people who've read it seem to think the story itself was fairly decent, which is very surprising to me. I have low self esteem. Can you tell? ^__^ ...I'm not asking for praise or comfort or reassurance or anything, I'm just putting it out there. I'm aware of it and I try to ignore it. Sometimes it even works, somehow.
Anyway, so. My department's assistant manager seems to have come to the conclusion that I have no idea how to close the bakery, despite having been there for ten months and closing by myself for nine and a half of those. I should like to think that, were I forgetting something, someone would mention it. One does not need to leave me a note telling me to put the muffins in the case. Really. I know. Maybe she secretly hates me and wants me to know but doesn't want to get in trouble with the store managers for it. Oh, yeah? WELL, IT WON'T WORK! I HATE YOU, TOO!
... SO THERE!
Now we talk about television that we watch on our computer!
Life on mars (I have given up on trying to get the "M" to capitalize when typing the title. It just never works) is almost over? What? No! Blearg! The ... surreality of it still tickles my brain. Is Sam really only in a coma? If he really is only in a coma, how come reality at least appears to shift on occasion? I am especially curious about Maya and her kidnapping. She's back, but was it because they had rescued her or because she'd never been caught, or what? If she'd never been taken or whatever, he'd not have ended up being hit and knocked out/into the past/whatever.
Maybe he wasn't really hit by a car at all. Maybe he was already out of it at that point and just coma-dreamed the kidnapping.
WHERE DOES REALITY START?
I think I'm thinking about this too much again and should just shut up and finish the series, already, instead. It is very late, anyway, so I'm sure I'm forgetting important details. (Actually, I was asleep, but now I am awake and unable to get to sleep again, so here we are. Writing a paper on insomnia seems to have been a rather terrible idea, as ever since I seem to have been inflicted with it.)
I do have to give the writers some credit. They're trying very, very hard to show Sam and Annie as a couple.
I feel kind of bad for them, considering how well it's just not working. There's no real dynamic between them. (Well, I mean, there is, just not much of one and not a very exciting one at that. It seems more of a older brother/younger sister thing, almost.)
(...Chris is just always eating, isn't he?)
Because I am a firm believer in abrupt and nonsensical changes in the topic of conversation, I am now going to talk about one of my original characters.
I have a lot of original characters. I have less original universes, but that's because I don't need a new world for every character. Thank God, really, because I don't think I'd ever manage to work them all out or keep them straight if I did.
Back in, oh, I think it was autumn of 2002, I got the idea into my head that it'd be fun to write a story featuring a cast of characters created by people I knew. I had a basic plot worked out, one that was simple enough that I could take it and twist it to, at least initially, fit the characters and their backgrounds. I asked pretty much everyone I knew to create me a character. Some created more than one, which was fine. They seemed to have fun with it, and I was fairly certain I could find a place for most everyone, even if it was just a cameo. Got the majority of the characters, picked the main crew, started on the plot. Unfortunately for me, the people who'd created the characters didn't want to work with me at all, and I wasn't able to ask them clarifying questions about their characters.
Rather than destroy their characters, I eventually dropped the idea. This was made very easy when I graduated and went off to college. I've not heard from ... all but three of the people I used to speak to since June, 04.
My character, though, she hung around, and I was really very surprised by that. I'd given her the name "Jade." At the time, Jade was sort of my generic name for most everything (I like the stone, meh). Online character for Diabolo II? Jade's in the name. AOL handle? Jade's in there somewhere. Random minor character in a story? Jade. Brother wants to rename "Dagger" / Garnet in FFIX but can't come up with a name? Jade. It was never fully 'assigned' to anyone. I never expected it to stick. It was Generic Name and I fully expected it to stay that way.
And then Jade went and gave herself a last name, wandered into the head-space, sullenly plunked herself down in the corner and pitched camp.
Jecca: You can go now, I don't need you anymore.
Jade: *eyebrow*
Jecca: ...erm.
Her companion turned up, too, which was really weird, since I didn't actually create Hotaru Okame. Someone else did, but we decided the two usually traveled and worked together.
In retrospect, it shouldn't've been so surprising. Okame's creator doesn't, as far as I know, ever write anything (aside from school work which, of course, doesn't actually count). She doesn't read fanfiction or really delve into fandoms, to my knowledge. Honestly, I think she's missing out. Fandoms are great places. On the other hand, I am slightly envious, as I am sure fandom can be blamed for the majority of my insanity.
Since Jade had taken on a life of her own (I mean that in a less-than-literal sense, in a way. I do not have multiple personalities or identity disassociation to my knowledge, but I have head characters, and you either know what I mean by that or you don't. There's really no explaining it), it kind of figures Okame'd do the same.
So, finding her place of origin lacking, Okame moved in and I found myself questioning her creator on things she'd never really thought to tell me about, and that is always a little disturbing.
Jecca: You didn't tell me she has a weird hang-up with eyes.
Okame's creator: ...How do you know about that?
Jecca: Please don't ask.
Later we realized (while I was in Maine and she was still back at home and neither of us were really communicating with the other. I'm telling you, it's creepy) there was a little more to their relationship than we'd originally thought and intended, but, well, there's not much one can do about it when one's characters take their lives into their own hands. Surprise!
Anyway, there's your not-so-quick backstory to their creation, even if it doesn't tell you anything about the two of them.
Thing is, I really, really like the two of them. They're not usually very intrusive characters. They don't sit on my shoulder and demand I write about them all day, every day, for which I am immensely thankful. They do occasionally hit me with a plot, hard, and those usually get written in just one or two sittings, but it's not really very common. I'd actually like to write more of them, but since the original world they'd been intended for fell apart, I'd need to build up a new one, and I'm... trying very hard not to start building new Massive Plot Arcs at the moment. I've already got a few too many.
(Heaven help me if I ever start writing that one story. I desperately want to, but at the same time I'm not sure if I'd be able to handle it. That cast of characters is very... difficult to work with.)
I really like the relationship the two have. It's a bit of a strange one, actually. Each needs the other, and each is aware that it runs both ways, but neither of them ever talk about it. One, because Jade doesn't do emotions, or so she'd like people to believe. Whenever anyone confronts her about her caring, even just a bit, about Okame, she either dismisses it with a flippant remark or ignores it outright. Two, because they don't really need to.
They kind of stabilize each other. If you know anything about Okame, that is perhaps the most absurd statement you have ever seen from me. Okame and stable don't often fit in the same sentence very well. Prior to their meeting, Okame... was not rooted in reality. At all. She was lost, disoriented, and, really, about to eaten alive and completely unaware of it, while Jade was a loose cannon and it was (er, still is, really, just to a much lesser extent) only a matter of time before she self-destructed. Somehow the two compliment each other just right, and I really love it whenever I'm able to explore the relationship between the two of them.
It doesn't happen often enough! Hey, you two! You're allowed to bother me a lot more than you do, I promise!
... woah. My train of thought just derailed in a rather spectacular fashion. Time to wrap this up, I guess.
I actually put Okame through Silent
Anyway, so. My department's assistant manager seems to have come to the conclusion that I have no idea how to close the bakery, despite having been there for ten months and closing by myself for nine and a half of those. I should like to think that, were I forgetting something, someone would mention it. One does not need to leave me a note telling me to put the muffins in the case. Really. I know. Maybe she secretly hates me and wants me to know but doesn't want to get in trouble with the store managers for it. Oh, yeah? WELL, IT WON'T WORK! I HATE YOU, TOO!
... SO THERE!