I've said it before and I'll say it again, and whether you think Laguna knew about Squall or not is irrelevant, the best thing he ever did as a parent was leave that kid in the orphanage.


This entry brought to you by my brother getting me into Final Fantasy Dissidia OperaOmnia and Laguna being, you know, himself in it.
jecca_mehlota: (Not quite heaven)
( Apr. 16th, 2011 10:07 pm)
I do not want to go to work tomorrow. It is a long day and those are lonely and sad, and it is a Sunday so I will have to walk, possibly in the rain, and I am feeling unappreciated by my manager, who is writing shitty schedules.

Whine.

30 Days of Video Games

Day 07 - Favourite game couple )

… wow, I will try to be less ridiculously allcaps-y tomorrow.
Are we still here? Hmm... Seems so. My ankle has taken to making me seriously consider amputation again (this happened last year around this time, too - that was when it started getting really bad, it was acting up over a week before then). I really, really hope it gets better faster, because being woken up and having to hobble-dash to the kitchen for pain killers and an icepack is never a fun way to start the day.

That "Question of the Day" everyone's doing today/yesterday (about breaking off unhealthy friendships) has made me angst even more, because I'm still pretty raw from that. Angst angst angst.


For some bizarre reason or another, for the first time since I started at this store, my manager has put me in for a full day! On Sunday! So not only do I have to wake up early (ew) (and hopefully I don't have an ankle incident then), I then have to walk to work in the cold and potentially snow, work all day (several of those hours will be by myself), and then walk home (2.5 miles! BECAUSE BUSES DON'T RUN ON SUNDAYS) in the dark and the cold and, again, potentially snow.

On the positive side, a friend (no, not even my mother) may be bringing me cake after I get out of work. WE PARTY HARD. (Yay, cake.)

...I worry, as time goes on, that people will begin to suspect I hate February because of the whole GETTING OLDER thing, when really it's just that it's cold and grey and seasonal affective disorder needs to fall into a pit and rot and also I hate my ankle. I am aware that this is kind of a strange thing to worry obsessively about. (I also worry obsessively about how weird people must think I am that I talk about what I've done with my mother a lot. WE'RE CLOSE OKAY I don't know.)


So I went out and bought some cording for some projects, and because I was bored, I did something entirely other with the nylon stuff I bought. When my grandmother died, most of her stuff was... I dunno where it went. But the kids and the grandkids and the... other relatives, et cetera, got to go through most of it (eventually - I got to poke through some of her jewelry, anyway). She actually had a lot of really nice stuff, so it's too bad I don't really wear jewelry or have pierced ears or anything. But, I did take one thing, anyway, 'cause they're pretty. She had a pair of earrings that had changeable stones. They were all jade, which I've been fond of for... ever? No idea why. I took the darker green ovals (there were darker green, lighter green, and then mostly white ones). I turned one of them into a pendant-thing, for the heck of it. Better than leaving it sit around doing nothing? NOW IT'S SITTING AROUND DOING NOTHING ON SOME STRING yey.


MAN I WISH I COULD FALL ASLEEP. I'm going to be very sad when I have to get up after maybe three hours of sleep Sunday morning.


For the FFVIII people, here is a theory I haven't seen before: Squall dies at the end of disc 1. Interesting to read, anyway.
So I just put up a hugelong rantramble that directly involves my mother and something she said to me in a place where she’ll see it (I probably won't be cross-posting it, so it's here on Facebook, mostly about asexuality, if you're curious. ...yes, my mother joined FB). Kind of hoping this doesn’t turn into drama! I don't mean for it to, I just don't see the point of hiding it from her. Been in a bit of an inexplicable rage all day, though, so maybe I do mean for it to cause drama? I can't tell. Anyway. Yeah. This was going to be the Dissidia post, by the way, but I got distracted and sidetracked myself halfway through and so I have cut it down to just this, instead. The other stuff's all saved in a word doc, anyway.

Fic. Apparently I'm actually considering plot. Not any more confident about it, but I feel obligated now that other people have prodded me towards the fact checking I needed. (Turns out what I'd thought was right, but I managed to misspell my own name twice today and then lost track of when it was to a point of years, which probably says enough about my mental state and why I really do not trust my brain at all these days.) I have t-- two? Three? Days off after tomorrow, so assuming I don't get called in (and that the oven does not explode - hey, we have a new heat sensor that we attach inside the door and that rests on the door handle, so you drop it on the floor every time you open or close the oven, and the sensor pad on the wire that goes inside the oven is missing, so really it's not effective, either), I should be feeling marginally more functional (coherent is probably too much to hope for) by the weekend.

I am making a poll. It does not, for the curious, have anything to do with the fact-checking I needed to do (those were, you know, facts, and what I'm asking about is more opinion, unless I am forgetting things, which is entirely likely), but I was poking around the fanbase - oh, I'm talking about FFVIII again, here - earlier this afternoon and, you know, stuff, train of thought jumping all over the place, I don't remember where I was looking that this jumped back into my brain, but I'm just wondering what other people think about it! Because I've seen a lot of different thoughts on it (and given it a fair amount of contemplation myself. It's one of the things I always wish they'd addressed more in canon, even though I know there was not really anywhere to work it in), though I think I narrowed it down to the ones I've seen the most? And actually since this will probably end up playing at least some role in the fic I am at least going to attempt to write (no guarantees) (it would be set post-game), if most everyone has different ideas than mine (or if there's stuff in canon), I might work with some of that instead?

(Also, late edit: it is probably better to consider the third question as relating to events post-game.)

Poll. Contains spoilers for FF8! )

RANDOM COMMENT: it actually makes me really (and irrationally) angry when people say that Final Fantasy XI “doesn’t count” for [insert reasoning here]. Because it’s stupid. Because you have to pay for monthly access. Because it’s online. You’re allowed to not like it! You’re allowed to not want to play it, or to think the MMORPG format isn’t a good one, but it counts. It has a story. It has characters (beyond you and the other players you meet) that you care about. Sure, you’re along for the ride a little more directly than usual, but you’re still not the hero. That role still goes to the NPCs. IT’S CALLED FINAL FANTASY XI. It is a number in the sequence! And I just get kind of upset when people dismiss it (as they often do). Really. You can say “I’ve played all the games in the series except XI” WITHOUT tacking on “because that one doesn’t count” at the end. If it doesn’t count, why do you feel obligated to mention it? No one is judging you. You don’t have to put it down like that. I promise.
jecca_mehlota: (Twilight)
( Oct. 27th, 2009 11:08 pm)
I honestly think that if I didn't have to be up in an hour to put stuff on my face, I would go to bed now (bed before midnight is pretty much unheard of for me). I wasn't supposed to work today, so I didn't think anything of staying up [entirely too] late last night [this morning] to beat FFVIII (that was fast). And then Aniko's work called after I'd had maybe four hours of unconsciousness? And it woke me up and I couldn't get back to sleep. But, no big deal, right? I can take it easy, maybe nap in the afternoon. Oh, what, the phone again? Now my work is calling? Sure, I always need more hours. I'll agree to come in! And then, perhaps a sign of mounting insanity or just sleep deprivation-induced poor judgment, I ended up walking to work (it's a little over two and a half miles). AND THEN I GOT TO WALK HOME, TOO. So, um. Very tired Jecca.

But I got a free sandwich out of the deal. Yay, free food.

Anyway, as you may have guessed from one of the comments above, I've been busy playing FFVIII. A couple of those times were my own fault. Aniko wasn't even around. I turned it on to go draw some magic (let's face it, that's probably a bit boring to watch) and then next thing I know it'd be much later and okay sure I'd have all the spells I needed but where did the day go? And then - augh. Wait, at least one person on my friends list has not finished this game.

Oh, look, a cut. Minor FFVIII spoilers )

Aaanyway, the oven at work is possessed (it's that time of year, I suppose). Keeps going too hot, but as soon as you notice, it cools back down.

I am bummed that I am working Saturday night. Oh, well. I GUESS THIS MEANS ANIKO AND I WILL JUST HAVE TO EAT THE CANDY WE BOUGHT INSTEAD OF HANDING IT OUT. GOSH. TOO BAD.

Oh, right, just glanced down at the tags (sometimes I fill them in first, sometimes last, and sometimes I add some, then add more when I go off on huge tangents). I still remember my NaNoWriMo log in. Nooo, what am I doing. noooooo. Still have block, have no story ideas, nuuuu.


Thank goodness, it is almost midnight. Hopefully I sleep enough tonight and can catch up on life tomorrow before going back to work. Or after work. Or, I don't know, something, anyway.
Almost halfway through disc 2 before anyone died (naturally, as soon as I noticed I hadn't suffered any KO's yet, Zell went and got murdered)! I think it surprises me mostly because, unlike most other times I've played through, I am not just throwing the GFs at things. MELEE MELEE MELEE why don't you guys do damage MELEE. I do resort to them on the bosses with timers, lots of hit points, or high physical resist.

I am not sure Square was thinking entirely clearly when they implemented the Draw system, though. I mean, there you are, the big boss battle! Against, I dunno, whoever. BOSS BATTLE, it doesn't matter. And instead of going omgomgomg gonna die, you are going, sweet, this guy has higher level cures! Or element spells, or esuna or something. So you spend, like, twenty minutes drawing magic. It is kind of... anticlimactic. Wait, yeah, I know we're supposed to be fighting, but hold on a minute, I need to get a few more of these spells from you 'cause seriously do you have any idea how great they are for junctioning? I often wonder what they think I'm doing, exactly, just standing there for the first half of the battle drawing spells.

Also, damn it, Zell, it would not kill you to learn to draw more than 3 spells at a time. RINOA CAN DO IT JUST FINE AND YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE THE ONE WITH TRAINING, HERE.


Lately, the number of people I have seen who seem to be working off the assumption that FFXIV is, in fact, a direct sequel to FFXI has begun to make me wonder if perhaps I have missed some news somewhere that says, surprise! It's true!


Father is annoyed at me because, instead of letting him come pick me up tonight (er, last night? Monday evening, anyway), I told him I would like to be picked up Tuesday morning because I have things to get done around here. YES SORRY I HAVE A LIFE THAT DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND MEETING YOUR EVERY PREFERENCE you gave me a choice okay, and I told you which I'd rather.

Going to New Hampshire for a day trip tomorrow, by the way, which is the cause of that. I could spend the night out there and wake up and hit the road with them in the morning or I could spend the night out here and they come pick me up in the morning and I don't think I'm being unreasonable wanting to stay here. Rarg. (Okay, I know I'm not being unreasonable, so it really quite irritates me that he went off as though I were.)


WHY AM I NOT TIRED.
jecca_mehlota: (Moogle-go-round)
( Oct. 18th, 2009 08:50 pm)
Why, why, why is it that I can remember which monsters are weak to which elements and what magic you can draw from them and where all the hidden draw points on the map are and what spell they contain and which bosses have which GF and the Obel Lake miniquest and - but cannot remember actual relevant information for the life of me?

Man, if I could apply my brain where I actually needed it, algebra would've been the easiest class ever.

(Even when I could remember the formula, I couldn't remember how to fill in the blanks and actually apply it. In my defense, I had a really terrible algebra teacher in high school. But he is a story for HOPEFULLY NEVER because otherwise it would imply him to be worth the effort of retelling it. Or that it is a funny story. Sadly, neither is true.)



Other news: not going to force self to rewrite sentences anymore. Language center's muddled again. Dropping pronouns (more than usual), replying to people in foreign languages. Thinking in foreign languages. Not fluent in any of them, makes it even more interesting. Lots of German this time around. Bit odd. (Better or worse than Al Bhed?)

Have a(n awesome) hat. Scarf (pretty blue, from Mexico), gloves (fingerless for typing and writing), jacket. Wool socks. Blanket. Weather below freezing. ...Weather responsible for language center shake up?


Aniko "napping" on couch. Six hours now? Suspect she's died. Keep considering waking her. Haven't yet.

Never mind, just woke up, haha.
jecca_mehlota: (Leap!)
( Feb. 21st, 2008 12:59 am)
Reason I have the best microcomputer applications class in the history of ever: in this week's class, we elected Mickey Mouse and Donald Duck as president and vice. (The professor was showing us one of the problems with computer-based voting! We had two elections - each "ballot" was the same, but in the results for the second tally, he wrote a program to miscount votes.)

Awesome award. ...Boom.

(Why does "awesome" prompt a boom? Very simple reason, actually. Michael Bay is an explosions lunatic. That article is hilarious.)


ANYWAY. Over at the anonymous meme, someone (I do not know who! Because it is anonymous!) commented that sie wished we had more in common! And I thought about that a bit and it occurred to me, I am not really sure I actually have that much in common with anyone on my friends list!

So I am going to list all of my major fandoms! And maybe why I like them in some cases, and whether or not I actually lurk the fanbase. And then people should feel free to leave comments telling me fandoms they think I should get into! Because I really love getting into new fandoms!

And this an open invitation to everyone! Not whoever left the comment! Because, as I said, it's not as if I'll know, anyway.

In no particular order, then... )

....Aaaand now nothing else is coming to mind. Am I missing any important fandoms or categories? PROBABLY. But, yes. Do we share more fandoms than we thought? Or do I have any fandoms you are interested in? Or do you have any fandoms I should be interested in?
We're having new windows put in next week. Finally, we will not lose all traces of heat in the winter to leaking windows! The house'll still be cold, because it's old and naturally drafty, and because we don't turn the heat very high, but it will be less cold.

So we've been clearing out all the rooms in the house to make paths to the windows - I don't know where everything is supposed to go, since every room has multiple windows. We can't move my desk without disassembling it, but we can take everything off it, which is what I'm having to do. (I have concluded that I do not have enough storage space dedicated to my Transformers, as about half of my Alternators collection is still sitting on my desk, since there is nowhere else to put it. ...The other half, along with Primus and the random other figures I've been keeping out, are all on my bed next to the Box o'Predacons.)

I found my old Playstation memory cards! I am happy! They were, of course, in a completely obvious place that I know I have looked in before. The only one I've had for the last year or so is the one with some copied files that I brought with me when I was living away for school (never used them, but thought, hey, just in case someone I meet has a Playstation, right?). So now I have ALL of my Final Fantasy VII, VIII, and IX files (instead of just one endgame file for each), my Xenogears files, Spyro, and a myriad of other things I can't remember. I think Vigilante 8 was on one of them, too.

From the other side of the good-bad spectrum, my headphones appear to be dying. I'm not getting much from the right ear, so it's either the headphones or my hearing. I ... hope it is the headphones, if that is the case! That or Winamp hates me and is intentionally picking songs with unbalanced sound.


Anyway. Silent Chocobo Forest from Final Fantasy VIII. IT IS MY ENEMY AND I HATE IT. If that stupid chicobo comes down and dances on my face one more time, so help me, I am going to lob its head off. Somehow. (I have these forests all completed in my second game, but, well. Apparently I hate myself.) (I'm only in this for the cards! Triple Triad is my addiction. I adore it. I can play it for hours and not realize it. I only have one town to go before the Random Rule is abolished forever.)

...For a Silent Hill/Silent Chocobo Forest crossover, would the boy be the victim, or the monster? I want him to suffer, but he's the stuff of nightmares. Also, I refuse to write it. Depressed Jecca does not write very well. By this we mean, worse than she usually does. GOING THROUGH A PHASE NEVER MIND ME
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