Who are these people?

[jecca_mehlota]

I have only met one directly, but you know those people who faint dead away at the sight of blood? Even just a little bit, like from a minor nosebleed? I have always wondered how they go through life. I mean... what do you do if you have the nosebleed, and seeing blood makes you pass out? These are the things I wonder about when I stand at the sink with a washcloth smashed against my face.

TODAY'S MEME ANSWER IS TERRIBLE AND DEPRESSING, by the way.

30 Days of Video Games


Day 09 - Saddest game scene.

THIS ONE HAS A TIE. There are a couple games that have me crying before the end card (for example, I never make it through to the credits of FFX without crying, but that one is… more bittersweet than outright sad? It's very sad, but I also know it's going to be okay for everyone. And now there's the sequel, and I go for the good ending there, so, hooray! Not that that fact stops me from sniffling my way through the ending, and sometimes my throat starts to hurt when I just listen to the soundtrack. And I've burst into sobs both times I've played Shadow of the Colossus straight through), but, augh.

My first thought on this one was, EASY! Crisis Core. And then I though, wait, it says saddest, not most traumatizing scene that made you sob so hard you thought you were possibly going to die. I can't watch even just the ending scenes without starting to whimper, so I can't bring myself to hunt one down the final battle (I can't think about it without my stomach turning). (THAT FIRST MOMENT WHEN I HIT ATTACK, BECAUSE OH MY GOD HOW COULD I NOT, right before I had to pause and put down the PSP and choke on my own hysterics, IS BURNED INTO MY RETINAS and it is TERRIBLE.) … Really, the actual ending is not near as bad as that final fight. (… Actually I think Zack having time to give that whole speech kind of cuts some of the emotional impact in some ways. In other ways, it adds a whole 'nother level to Cloud's whole identity crisis, so I'm not entirely sure how I feel about it. It's like this huge send-off, and, I dunno, if they'd cut half of it out, or kept it exactly as it is in FFVII - BANG BANG BANG DEAD - and then played the rest out without words, it would've been a whole lot worse, but instead he just keeps talking.) (...I guess they didn't want to cause the player base to pass over dead from depression overload. That is rather considerate of them. I mean, I am actually kind of starting to shake a little imagining how the ending would have been without the speech, and, ugh, oh my god, I would still be crying.) That whole segment is definitely the winner, but, well, I'm not sure it counts, since it's not what we usually mean when we say "scene" in reference to video games (fighting a battle, I mean. We usually don't call those "scenes". We call them FIGHTS). Also I refuse to find it for you to show you, because SOBBING.

Now excuse me, I've gone and upset myself. (I will never recover. I was messed up for days after beating that game, and I still don't know that I've ever cried so hard for so long, before or since. And so I will probably never play the game through again. Which is too bad, because it really is a good game.) (Know what's fun, though, in a masochistic kind of way? Seeing/reading other people's reactions to it.)




mysticeden STOP READING HERE and skip to the bottom of the entry or something.





BUT. For saddest actual scene (with significantly less trauma!), I have to pick the bit towards the end of Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days. YEAH, YOU ALL KNOW WHAT I MEAN. Sitting on the roof, here comes Xion! AND THEN EVERYTHING GOES WRONG.

… haa, it's kind of funny that both scenes revolve around having to fight. Though, as terrible as that battle was, I found the scene after it to be so much worse, because, augh, just seconds after the final stage, Roxas is already forgetting everything, and we know exactly what happens later, which just makes it worse, because I'm pretty sure things playing out the way they did wasn't exactly what Xion had in mind and, just… *sob*. Roxas' confusion and Xion's reassuring him, anyway, and, just. Heartbreaking. ;_;

Though, unlike Crisis Core, I think I'd be able to play this game again. (And it's only been, what, two months, as opposed to over a year… oh, Crisis Core, I thought I might get over you. APPARENTLY I WAS WRONG.)

…I should've done this one first, I totally lost steam for this half.







mysticeden, you can look again

Basically: if you want to just make me very sad, cue [that scene] from 358/2 Days. If you want to make me cry, even though I will not necessarily be sad for it, cue the ending of either Final Fantasy X or Shadow of the Colossus (Ico did not affect me as much, for some reason). If you want to turn me into a complete wreck, possibly with screaming and hysterics, cue the final battles and the first half of the ending of Crisis Core. I will be a whimpering sack of uselessness within seconds. (... Just don't try to make me play it again. I think I would actually scream, and it would probably be "I CAN'T DO THIS, I CAN'T, I CAN'T, I CAN'T" over and over.)


I was clicking around the internet this morning trying to find if there's a set of official lyrics for "Answers" (that song I was rambling about in yesterday's entry) out there yet (it seems not, still) and ended up in a forum thread where someone linked to this trailer video and, DAMN IT, SE, I want to play that game! Where are you hiding it? :<

I mean, I presume the storyline will get there eventually, but, man... (What really bugs me is that I CAN JUST SEE THE EDGES of a really, really interesting and great story buried in there somewhere, but it comes soooo slowly and just, there is so much wrong with that game still.)

WHATEVER, I STILL HAVE VANA'DIEL. (VERSION UPDATE IN MAY WHOOOO finally getting the server merges out of the way and reopening the worlds, geez.)

... haha, not-so-funny story about the upcoming merges, which I am not sure I have even mentioned, partly because of this story! Phoenix was spared any of the drama last year 'cause we had one of the highest populations, but after the merges, we had the highest of the lowest populations... So we're on the board this time. S'UP, TITAN.

Anyway, most of us are irrationally attached to our servers in FFXI. That's important for you to know because, the night my cat was lost and I was stuck in New York freaking out and being upset (it didn't help at all that when my then-roommate called to tell me what was up, she was in what I thought to be either drunken or sobbing hysterics and unable to speak, so once we'd finally narrowed it down to SOMETHING BAD, I was like, Jesus, she's simultaneously screaming and hyperventilating, was someone KILLED, did the building burn down, has she been raped??? So I was already freaking out before we finally got to the "I LET THE CAT OUT AND HE DISAPPEARED" part), after I'd done what I could (which was basically nothing), I went clicking around the web on my PSP trying to take my mind off things and of course the first damn thing I come across is SERVER MERGES and there is Phoenix on the list and I was like ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME, FIRST YOU TAKE MY CAT AND NOW YOU TAKE MY SERVER and was one untied shoelace away from complete mental meltdown for a few seconds. Fortunately, I did a little more reading and discovered Phoenix is fine, we're FINE, we are just getting company.

BUT YEAH! That is my story about the upcoming server merges! Exciting.

Comments

[mysticeden.livejournal.com]

I can never finish that game ever again... I told you I even had to sell/trade it (can't remember which I did) Cause even knowing it was in the same room as me... even seeing it every once in a while when looking for other games just.. no.. NOOOO T_T

PS The icon is sarcastic.. I couldn't find any emo enough so I went in the other direction.

[twilit-wanderer.livejournal.com]

Getting rid of games is a foreign concept to me. And I like to imagine that someday I will maybe at least fun missions in it again! After all, combat was a lot of fun. :3


DO YOU LIKE HOW OUR TALKING ABOUT THIS ENTRY ON AIM BROKE THE INTERNET? The angst, it is too strong.

[mysticeden.livejournal.com]

It used to be for me too.. and for better or worse cir4cumstances have changed me. As for the missions.. I did really want to finish them all... should have finished the few I had left before going further in the game. >_< Just it got to a point where the plot wouldn't let me stop @_@ SE brain control!!!

haha yes I noticed that XD The internet became too EMO

[twilit-wanderer.livejournal.com]

*run missions, not fun missions.

Haha, yeah, there is the tipping point where all of a sudden it is less, whee, playing a game, and more, IF I DON'T FINISH I WILL NEVER PICK THIS GAME UP AGAIN DON'T THINK ABOUT IT DON'T THINK ABOUT IT AAAAAA THE PLOT COMES


The internet needs to buck up or something, geez. This perpetual disconnected/reconnected stuff is getting annoying.


(CHRIST. SO MANY TYPOS.)

[rionaleonhart]

I am actually kind of starting to shake a little imagining how the ending would have been without the speech, and, ugh, oh my god, I would still be crying.

Popping up on an entry that's almost four years old to flap in distress at you, because no. Zack just lying there already dead when Cloud crawled over to him would have been incredibly effective, but it would also have destroyed me.

(I'm incredibly late to Crisis Core, but at least I got there in the end.)

[jecca_mehlota]

Almost four years later, I'm pretty sure I would still still be crying (assuming I hadn't given up and died of distress).

(Yay! I'd say congratulations but maybe I should tell you I'm sorry for your suffering, instead?)