Faily faily faily fail fail

[jecca_mehlota]

For reasons completely unknown to me, the people in charge of my internship decided to contact my instructor and tell him, no, it's not working, we don't want her here anymore. Not tell me at all, just tell him. They told him they were going to contact me, but I just got a message from him asking me to call because he wanted to ask me about that and, no, I hadn't heard a word, and by the way they made this decision last Thursday. I was there last Thursday!


So apparently I suck unbelievably at the thing I'm supposed to be graduating for in month's time, though I don't know how or what I was doing wrong. I thought it was going well...


They could have at least told me instead of waiting until I turned up tomorrow morning. Or told me what I was doing wrong or ANYTHING other than just waiting!


I'm trying really hard not to think of this as me having personally failed because I know - I know - that isn't necessarily the case and god, we spent how much money trying to fix me of this? But it's really hard not to right now. Maybe I did mess something up horribly, I don't know!




Oh, and I'm still eighty hours short of my required field experience time.


God, I just... fuck.




Also, you know, completely unrelated but also full of fail and woe, Douglas is still a shithead, if we're going to use Jon Stewart's words for it. Stupid me had kind of hoped Iowa's decision might've made him pause and use his brain for half a minute, but I guess not.

Comments

[thebaconfat.livejournal.com]

Arrrrrrgh, why would that do that to you? Does your instructor know anything about why they did this?

I know that you're smart and a hard worker, and I am positive that this is about them, and not you. Maybe they just don't like the teaching thing, or they're really busy and it's a bad time or something, but I'm sure if you'd messed something up while you were there they would have said something to you about it, so I'm sure it's something that has nothing to do with you. You are competent and capable, and this job is no different from working in the bakery; your attitude of wanting to learn and wanting to do a good job are what really matters.

[twilit-wanderer.livejournal.com]

I don't know. He doesn't know. No one knows. I guess I'll be calling tomorrow morning, just to make absolutely sure (NOTHING LIKE STARTING THE DAY WITH A MASSIVE SOBBING SPREE), maybe they'll tell me then...


Thank you.

[nano_moose]

...Okay, in the reality I'm from, that is typically referred to as a dick move and I am completely outraged on your behalf. Can you at least ask for a specific reason for why they let you go?

[twilit-wanderer.livejournal.com]

I'm stuck toggling rapidly between angst and anger at the moment. I'm going to check in via phone tomorrow morning and hopefully I'll be able to get some sort of explanation then, but I'm not particularly optimistic right now.