I ATTACK AT DAWN.

... wh-what do you mean it's already dawn?


I am a bit annoyed about having to navigate the spiders' lair that is the shed, though.


Also, this is probably tacky as all get out. OH WELL.

SUCCESS!

The attack - and by "attack" I mean, "trip down the street" - went off with... okay, several instances of me not knowing what the heck I was supposed to be doing, BUT IT HAPPENED, and I was victorious!


And then it started pouring as I was walking home, and then I was just soggy.

Sounding like a two-year-old.

It's such a minor, petty, and pathetic annoyance! But I hate, hate, hate it when someone - it's always one of your parents, actually, but whatever - takes something that is, well....

Today:

My brother is trashing or boxing pretty much everything he owns, made much easier by his doing literally nothing this summer but sit at home (if I tried that, I'd be kicked out and possibly disowned). I've been working and taking classes and going to things. I've been busy! I've had no time, but in my very spare free time (having time after midnight doesn't count because that's cutting into my sleep time and because everyone else is asleep and I can't be up and about), I've been working through some old boxes of stuff.

One of those boxes was empty, but I had plans for it when I got back to things.

Except today my mother comes into my room and takes the lid, because they took my box and used it to pack up my brother's things. And I protested this a bit, because, hey, that was my box and I was using it! Yes, it was empty at the time, but...! I happened to quite like those boxes! And I haven't seen them since so, no, mother, they can't be replaced.


"But, honey, I paid for it!"


It's such a stupid brush-off, especially since half the time, sure they bought it, but then they gave it to you. ....Mostly I think I'm just really, really sick of feeling like everything I think and feel is being completely brushed off by everyone I interact with and aryeghkte angst fit whine whine whine whine shut up shut up shut up shut up

IT WAS MY BOX, AND I REALLY LIKED IT, AND NOW I'LL NEVER HAVE ANOTHER ONE BECAUSE MY MOTHER TOOK IT AWAY AND GAVE IT TO MY BROTHER AND I'M SAD, OKAY. IS THERE SOMETHING BAD ABOUT THAT? AM I NOT ALLOWED TO BE UPSET? GOD DAMN IT WHY CAN I NOT JUST BE UPSET WITHOUT SOMEONE CALLING ME STUPID AND NOT CONSIDERING WHERE THE OTHER PERSON IS COMING FROM? I DO, BUT SOMETIMES I'M STILL UPSET BECAUSE I FEEL I'VE BEEN SLIGHTED IN SOME WAY, ALL RIGHT?? IS THAT SO WRONG??

be right back running away to alaska or something i don't know i need to get out of this stupid house and away from these people they're not good for me and my mental and emotional health

If this was just one thing, I probably wouldn't even be that bothered, but this has been a stupid, awful week for Jecca-family interactions.

Edit:
ALSO YES, if anyone had noticed, I've been largely ignoring my friends page, so, uh, sorry. My chemistry teacher has decided to end class early, but all the work is still due, so I suddenly have even less time to do more work in, and I've been very stressed. Sorry.