Jecca Mehlota (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
jecca_mehlota) wrote2007-07-27 02:21 am
jecca_mehlota) wrote2007-07-27 02:21 am
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Emotions are so confusing.
There is apparently something disturbingly freeing in realizing you're only worth about as much as so much scrap in the eyes of someone you consider a friend.
Though on second thoughts, it may just be defense mechanisms kicking in. Hrm. Something to reflect on. Yes, I do spend an unhealthy amount of time questioning and analyzing my own emotional reactions to things. They never make sense.
I do hate confrontations, though, and I really hope I can pull this off without going passive aggressive as I at least used to always do.
I am hoping there's a reasonable explanation for all of it, but past experiences suggest that there won't be.
Though on second thoughts, it may just be defense mechanisms kicking in. Hrm. Something to reflect on. Yes, I do spend an unhealthy amount of time questioning and analyzing my own emotional reactions to things. They never make sense.
I do hate confrontations, though, and I really hope I can pull this off without going passive aggressive as I at least used to always do.
I am hoping there's a reasonable explanation for all of it, but past experiences suggest that there won't be.