Um.

I am fairly certain I've made this entry before (possibly multiple times), but apparently I think it needs repeating (again). Blame my fluctuating mental state. Or the allergy meds. Both, even! The point, anyway, is that I am really kind of terribly awful at leaving comments (you are all shocked by this revelation, I am sure). It is not because I do not read your entries, or that I do not care (actually, I will confess that I do not read Glee-related entries, which many of you do write, because I simply do not care about that show. At all. But that is nothing personal, that is me really not like a series, and different tastes and all), it is just that I never know what to say. It seems like someone has always already said it better than me, or that what I would say would just be trite or annoying. And I know that is kind of crap, because I, at least, totally don't notice if someone has said something totally ridiculous in a comment left here. I always love getting comments! But (and this is partly what the meds and most recent run of therapy's about) I have recurring troubles with self-esteem and all, so despite knowing a comment I'd leave wouldn't bother me if someone else left it, I can't help but imagine it will annoy the pants off of whoever I leave it for. (I am even having trouble doing things as simple as hitting "Like" on Facebook these days.)


This was just something I was reflecting on as I did that whole 30 Days of Video Games meme, during which I got an unusually high number of comments, but I was leaving even less than usual. And I feel really bad about this, but at the moment, I am just not equipped to deal with it. So, I'm sorry, and I hope no one feels like I am ignoring them or that I don't like them or don't care. I'm just not in a very good brain-space.