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Cracked open my writings today. I'm not sure a month was enough for me to come up with anything new, but it was apparently enough time for me to be able to reread the entire forty pages (spread over three different stories, though two are tied together. I'm writing a sequel before I've finished the original) without wanting to destroy it. It all needs serious work, though that's no surprise.
Part of me wants to take the ending of the sequel and destroy it with cruelty, but that might be my frustrations with all of it manifesting. I probably won't, as it might stretch the boundaries of both involved canons. (Is it possible to stretch the canon boundaries of Silent Hill?) Part of it works, part of it doesn't. ...At this stage, I like the sequel - which features some Silent Hill crossing-over (the first isn't directly crossed with anything, and I recently came to the surprised realization that it will be the first ONLY Transformers thing I've ever written) better. That kind of disturbs me.
I don't know - I honestly do not know, because this isn't even a case of something being cracky but still intriguing like "GT" was - how I was talked into writing this. I'm not romantic in the least. I can't write romance. I don't know the first thing about it. I've never been in a relationship and I've never had any desire to be in a relationship! The pairings I really like (be they canon or otherwise) are all a little weird in terms of the dynamics, anyway, which doesn't help me any. Nor does my extremely strong preference for more subtlety in relationships. It's hard to write a subtle relationship when I'm supposed to be writing about two individuals getting together. (I mean, you can use subtlety, but it has to come out eventually to get to the point.)
What I think annoys me most is I'm not sure where I want - or need - to be going with things, and the person who wants me to write it doesn't seem to be capable of giving me any feedback on it (er, I'm sorry, you-person. I'm not trying to be cruel. This is more my frustration with myself than with you). This is extremely hard for me to write, and at this rate, I imagine I'm going to abandon it, because I can't get any sense of whether or not it's working. (No, I can't reliably critique my own writing.)
My parents are watching the Super Bowl. I don't know why. We're not really sports people (though Mom will watch baseball sometimes). Sure, an "all new House event" (what does that even mean? Can't you just call it an episode?) is supposed to be on when it finishes, but that won't be until at least 10, and they've been watching since 7 or so.
Edit:
What.
Part of me wants to take the ending of the sequel and destroy it with cruelty, but that might be my frustrations with all of it manifesting. I probably won't, as it might stretch the boundaries of both involved canons. (Is it possible to stretch the canon boundaries of Silent Hill?) Part of it works, part of it doesn't. ...At this stage, I like the sequel - which features some Silent Hill crossing-over (the first isn't directly crossed with anything, and I recently came to the surprised realization that it will be the first ONLY Transformers thing I've ever written) better. That kind of disturbs me.
I don't know - I honestly do not know, because this isn't even a case of something being cracky but still intriguing like "GT" was - how I was talked into writing this. I'm not romantic in the least. I can't write romance. I don't know the first thing about it. I've never been in a relationship and I've never had any desire to be in a relationship! The pairings I really like (be they canon or otherwise) are all a little weird in terms of the dynamics, anyway, which doesn't help me any. Nor does my extremely strong preference for more subtlety in relationships. It's hard to write a subtle relationship when I'm supposed to be writing about two individuals getting together. (I mean, you can use subtlety, but it has to come out eventually to get to the point.)
What I think annoys me most is I'm not sure where I want - or need - to be going with things, and the person who wants me to write it doesn't seem to be capable of giving me any feedback on it (er, I'm sorry, you-person. I'm not trying to be cruel. This is more my frustration with myself than with you). This is extremely hard for me to write, and at this rate, I imagine I'm going to abandon it, because I can't get any sense of whether or not it's working. (No, I can't reliably critique my own writing.)
My parents are watching the Super Bowl. I don't know why. We're not really sports people (though Mom will watch baseball sometimes). Sure, an "all new House event" (what does that even mean? Can't you just call it an episode?) is supposed to be on when it finishes, but that won't be until at least 10, and they've been watching since 7 or so.
Edit:
What.
