Man, I'm sorry. I've got some problems with depression myself and lately I've just been feeling... so, so, so tired of trying so hard to be friends with people who've shown through their actions over and over again that they do not give a crap about me. And I want to meet new people but I don't know how, or how to talk to them. And I want people to get to know me, but at the same time I'm terrified of it.

It makes me glad I have LJ, where I can be myself and say what I'm thinking without tripping over my own tongue all the time... but there's still times when LJ feels like I'm just talking and nobody cares what I'm saying, and I shouldn't be making the effort.

Anyways, I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I know things will get better, but... yeah. Sometimes that waiting for things to get better seems to take a really, really long time. Myself, I've started making some medication that's really helped make my lows not quite so low, and now I'm debating about finding a counselor to talk to. However you decide to deal with things, I wish you the best.

And I just want to say that I enjoy reading your posts, even though I can't always think of things to say! And I'm glad that you're using LJ to express this stuff instead of just being upset about it on your own.