Jecca Mehlota (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
jecca_mehlota) wrote2010-03-12 02:22 am
jecca_mehlota) wrote2010-03-12 02:22 am
asdkjfg go to bed
DAYLIGHT SAVING TIME IS APPROACHING, BRAIN, you have picked a terrible time to reset our own internal clock to, what is this, Tokyo time? I WILL STAB YOU. With, uh, a cotton swab or something, maybe, anyway, I don't know. If only my brain really were a completely separate entity that I could punch or lock away somewhere (this originally read "in the closet", but considering the closet here only has half a door, this wouldn't be an entirely effective course of action) when it acts stupid.
I am totally working on fics! Hooray! PROGRESS! Only, uh. I'm writing literally everything in ... shorthand? It's not really shorthand, but it's not really story, either, because it's written with a lot of all-caps and ridiculous sentences and summaries of action and... stuff. It's like - hrm. I don't want to post any of it because the scenes I'm working on at the moment are all either supposed to be closer to the end or part of Important Plot Stuff and if I ever finish anything and then actually post it (publicly, I mean. Not just under private-lock. YES, I HAVE DONE THIS. SORRY GUYS, I KNOW IT'S LAME OF ME. The first step is admitting the problem?), then it's not stuff I want people going in knowing (this assumes anyone would READFGIKHLME BAD BRAIN STOP BEING SELF-HATING) (totally unrelated, aside from the fuck you, brain thing, but apparently now some are thinking depression is actual brain damage and not just blarhg chemical imbalance, which is kind of interesting and kind of makes sense, but is also kind of even more ARGH!-inducing) and I have completely lost track of this paragraph because everything I write is coming out ridiculous these days.
RETRY: I don't want to post any of it because the scenes I'm working on at the moment are all either supposed to be closer to the end or part of Important Plot Stuff and if I ever finish anything and then actually post it, then it's not stuff I want people going in knowing, and apparently right now I am too lazy to change character names and strip out the one or two actually relevant sentences. ...Also it is probably not actually that interesting and then you would all feel cheated by my idiocy or something.
Ugh, this is stupid. I can't decide if I want to delete this entry (which I have been doing a lot of lately YES EVEN ON THE THREE ENTRIES DAY) or just suck it up and post it.
Also I have changed my mind and locked it.
...ALSO IF THIS ENTRY DISAPPEARS LATER, I GUESS YOU WILL KNOW WHY. Unlocked again now.
I am totally working on fics! Hooray! PROGRESS! Only, uh. I'm writing literally everything in ... shorthand? It's not really shorthand, but it's not really story, either, because it's written with a lot of all-caps and ridiculous sentences and summaries of action and... stuff. It's like - hrm. I don't want to post any of it because the scenes I'm working on at the moment are all either supposed to be closer to the end or part of Important Plot Stuff and if I ever finish anything and then actually post it (publicly, I mean. Not just under private-lock. YES, I HAVE DONE THIS. SORRY GUYS, I KNOW IT'S LAME OF ME. The first step is admitting the problem?), then it's not stuff I want people going in knowing (this assumes anyone would READFGIKHLME BAD BRAIN STOP BEING SELF-HATING) (totally unrelated, aside from the fuck you, brain thing, but apparently now some are thinking depression is actual brain damage and not just blarhg chemical imbalance, which is kind of interesting and kind of makes sense, but is also kind of even more ARGH!-inducing) and I have completely lost track of this paragraph because everything I write is coming out ridiculous these days.
RETRY: I don't want to post any of it because the scenes I'm working on at the moment are all either supposed to be closer to the end or part of Important Plot Stuff and if I ever finish anything and then actually post it, then it's not stuff I want people going in knowing, and apparently right now I am too lazy to change character names and strip out the one or two actually relevant sentences. ...Also it is probably not actually that interesting and then you would all feel cheated by my idiocy or something.
Ugh, this is stupid. I can't decide if I want to delete this entry (which I have been doing a lot of lately YES EVEN ON THE THREE ENTRIES DAY) or just suck it up and post it.
...ALSO IF THIS ENTRY DISAPPEARS LATER, I GUESS YOU WILL KNOW WHY.